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My biological dad died. I feel so weird and confused.
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Chuck, I'm sorry that I was a horrible daughter who completely ignored you. I really am. In some strange way, I hope you didn't care about me. If I hurt you, I never meant to. I just didn't know how to handle it. Just like I don't know how to handle this. I wish I had given myself the opportunity to know you and love you. I refused you for so long, but now you are gone and I can't change anything. I am so, so sorry.
There is a tiny part of me that is you. It's something I couldn't understand until now.
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Chuck, I'm sorry that I was a horrible daughter who completely ignored you. I really am. In some strange way, I hope you didn't care about me. If I hurt you, I never meant to. I just didn't know how to handle it. Just like I don't know how to handle this. I wish I had given myself the opportunity to know you and love you. I refused you for so long, but now you are gone and I can't change anything. I am so, so sorry.
There is a tiny part of me that is you. It's something I couldn't understand until now.