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I woke up feeling very sad this morning. It was like i was visiting with an old friend. I listened to music and layed in bed scared to wake up or make any single decision. It was like old times. I don't think i want to stay that well but in a way it felt good to be sad and scared.
I feel partly betrayed. Not because of what happened but because of how it was handled. It's not right when I have to apologuise for being hurt or sad. Nobody's right when everybody's wrong. I am glad that this lesson is being taught to me. You can't join the army and expect never to be shot at.
Leaf game tonight. Working on house today. Broke a string on my guitar and I never am in the mood to fix strings when I am sad.
I don't like life to be boring. The terrible things in my life interest me. Some people enjoy getting hot or bitten. I enjoy watching the walls of my life fall down around me. This is when I am happy.
I don't write in livejournal when I am happy.
My life isn't terrible.
It's not all bad.
It's pretty good.
"She aint pretty she just looks that way" I like that song. (Don't read into it)
Go Leafs Go.
I feel partly betrayed. Not because of what happened but because of how it was handled. It's not right when I have to apologuise for being hurt or sad. Nobody's right when everybody's wrong. I am glad that this lesson is being taught to me. You can't join the army and expect never to be shot at.
Leaf game tonight. Working on house today. Broke a string on my guitar and I never am in the mood to fix strings when I am sad.
I don't like life to be boring. The terrible things in my life interest me. Some people enjoy getting hot or bitten. I enjoy watching the walls of my life fall down around me. This is when I am happy.
I don't write in livejournal when I am happy.
My life isn't terrible.
It's not all bad.
It's pretty good.
"She aint pretty she just looks that way" I like that song. (Don't read into it)
Go Leafs Go.