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waste another year flies by
waste a night or two
you taught me how to live
greetings, loyal LJ readers. November has been a demanding month in matters of love and education. Hence, I've been pretty much AWOL as of the past couple weeks. no need to worry- that will all change come December. I'm off from December 7th till January 9th and so you know Ms. Toasty McGee will be just that- toasty- for the greater portion of that month. exciting prospect.
but until then, it's exams, essays and figuring out this strange concept called love. okay, time to get a little personal. I thought I was in love once. granted, I was sixteen and a lot less experienced and aware. from January 2004 until now I've experienced more life lessons and crazy adventures than the 16 years previous combined. anyway. I thought I was in love and therein lies the first problem with that statement- you don't think you're in love. there is no thought involved in the feeling of love. for awhile, I thought I was in love with Scott too. recently those thoughts have been replaced by a very real feeling that seems to consume my entire being. it's not something i think anymore. i love this man. i can't guarantee I'll always feel that way, of course. I certainly can't guarantee that he will always love me. but experiencing such a feeling, I think, is a lesson in itself regardless of the outcome.
my head and heart are finally okay, after the obligatory fall breakdown. it's weird, it happens every year- a week or two of complete depression and a general despair for life, where I wake up in the morning with a pit in my stomach, wishing I could sleep the day away. i always snap out of it eventually but there's never any indication to why it starts, when it will start and when it will end. weird.
in other news- i have this coming weekend off! Thursday night, Saturday night and all day Sunday have already been reserved by various parties but Friday's pretty wide open at this point as well at Saturday afternoon. and so, if you're one of the fuckers who I never get to see anymore- I'm up for some coffee or lunch and general catching up time. nothing too expensive- i'm saving for Christmas. I have no idea what to buy anyone. except Scott- I'm getting him a thesaurus as a joke. hehehe. and that's all I got. I like to think I'm easy to buy for- sex, drugs and knowledge. anything relating to those general topics will most likely appease me.
time for class, compadres- until next update...
waste a night or two
you taught me how to live
greetings, loyal LJ readers. November has been a demanding month in matters of love and education. Hence, I've been pretty much AWOL as of the past couple weeks. no need to worry- that will all change come December. I'm off from December 7th till January 9th and so you know Ms. Toasty McGee will be just that- toasty- for the greater portion of that month. exciting prospect.
but until then, it's exams, essays and figuring out this strange concept called love. okay, time to get a little personal. I thought I was in love once. granted, I was sixteen and a lot less experienced and aware. from January 2004 until now I've experienced more life lessons and crazy adventures than the 16 years previous combined. anyway. I thought I was in love and therein lies the first problem with that statement- you don't think you're in love. there is no thought involved in the feeling of love. for awhile, I thought I was in love with Scott too. recently those thoughts have been replaced by a very real feeling that seems to consume my entire being. it's not something i think anymore. i love this man. i can't guarantee I'll always feel that way, of course. I certainly can't guarantee that he will always love me. but experiencing such a feeling, I think, is a lesson in itself regardless of the outcome.
my head and heart are finally okay, after the obligatory fall breakdown. it's weird, it happens every year- a week or two of complete depression and a general despair for life, where I wake up in the morning with a pit in my stomach, wishing I could sleep the day away. i always snap out of it eventually but there's never any indication to why it starts, when it will start and when it will end. weird.
in other news- i have this coming weekend off! Thursday night, Saturday night and all day Sunday have already been reserved by various parties but Friday's pretty wide open at this point as well at Saturday afternoon. and so, if you're one of the fuckers who I never get to see anymore- I'm up for some coffee or lunch and general catching up time. nothing too expensive- i'm saving for Christmas. I have no idea what to buy anyone. except Scott- I'm getting him a thesaurus as a joke. hehehe. and that's all I got. I like to think I'm easy to buy for- sex, drugs and knowledge. anything relating to those general topics will most likely appease me.
time for class, compadres- until next update...