wastedpotential
My name is funny... My username... And all the things that I say about everything are funny, too, because I always direct them out. Away from myself. I have potential, too. All of you get to see my potential here, where my thoughts are easy to organize. I'm writing, not talking. If I take a half-hour break between words, it doesn't mean a thing to anyone reading this. I don't sound any less intelligent if I shrink the window and play a computer game, then come back, read through what I wrote to get back on track and continue again. I don't do that, but my point is that I COULD and you would not know it.
All those smart things that I toss around here that make it seem like I must be a great genius or a cynical asshole aren't things that you would see just any day. It is DIFFERENT here. I do not live up to what I seem like I am here. I cannot keep acting like I am as good as I could be if I am not putting forth the effort to be that way. I cannot just give everyone little examples of what I could be and let them believe that that is what I AM.
Everyone has the potential to be something more than what they are. Always. Not everyone cares or tries to reach that point. People waste what they could be. So do I. I still make mistakes. And I don't care if "everyone makes mistakes." I don't care. I do, too, and I'm obviously not trying hard enough to avoid that. I am obviously still thinking too much about myself and too little about other people. This is my fault, and no one elses. Don't feel sympathetic, if you're about to. I'm not sad. I'm just admiting it. I can't have this name if I don't admit to these things.
And confessing does NOT make me better than I was ten minutes earlier. Until I try to be better, I won't be. This is not trying. This is stating where I am.
It's not going to do me any good to point my finger if I'm not the only person that has one...
All those smart things that I toss around here that make it seem like I must be a great genius or a cynical asshole aren't things that you would see just any day. It is DIFFERENT here. I do not live up to what I seem like I am here. I cannot keep acting like I am as good as I could be if I am not putting forth the effort to be that way. I cannot just give everyone little examples of what I could be and let them believe that that is what I AM.
Everyone has the potential to be something more than what they are. Always. Not everyone cares or tries to reach that point. People waste what they could be. So do I. I still make mistakes. And I don't care if "everyone makes mistakes." I don't care. I do, too, and I'm obviously not trying hard enough to avoid that. I am obviously still thinking too much about myself and too little about other people. This is my fault, and no one elses. Don't feel sympathetic, if you're about to. I'm not sad. I'm just admiting it. I can't have this name if I don't admit to these things.
And confessing does NOT make me better than I was ten minutes earlier. Until I try to be better, I won't be. This is not trying. This is stating where I am.
It's not going to do me any good to point my finger if I'm not the only person that has one...