2013 the year that ended badly.
All in all 2013 was pretty good, I proved to myself that I can get good grades, my husband and I had a good relationship full of talking, and loving.
I discovered water aerobics, and got over my fear of traffic lights.
My parents in law came to visit and we saw a college football game, my Grandmother moved up here from California and we got to spend some time together, I decided to go back to the coven, and discovered how to deal with panic attacks.
I discovered Silk Soy Eggnog, Wow yummy stuff that at only 90 calories a glass it is worth the price.
The bad, was my Grandmother had a massive stroke on the 10th a day before her birthday and died.
It is hard to think of my world without Grandma Ida in it, she was a force to be reckoned with, smart as hell talented, and critical in the ways only an Irish Woman can be.
She was 92 and lived a long hard good life, it was unfair that all her family and friends her age were gone, and she did resent that, but she also had great confidence in the youth of today to be better that her generation, ( I wish I could share that belief.)
I was happy to realize that she got to see my Happily married, living in a cute clean house, with a good job and going back to school to get a better job.
The only thing she wanted for me was to be skinny and healthy.
I am now back at work and it is the third day of the New Year and I am both hopeful and depressed.
Depressed because I miss her, I am surrounded with her things her, bed, her chairs, her silk robe and hairbrush because they remind me of her and make me feel like she is still here.
I am having a hard time getting out of bed and getting motivated to do things, usually by this point i have a clean house, and a new slate for the new year.
I am feeling fat and ugly and lazy and I don not thing my Grandma would want that for me at all.
I am hopeful because the new quarter starts Monday and I have a new chance to ace a class, I am alive for another year and I have another chance to loose the weight and get healthy, and to generally make myself a person I would like to know.
Today I got a new haircut, and new makeup yesterday I got my oil changed so everyday is a chance for improvement.
According to Wemoon this is the year of radical balance, so that is what I am striving for.
I discovered water aerobics, and got over my fear of traffic lights.
My parents in law came to visit and we saw a college football game, my Grandmother moved up here from California and we got to spend some time together, I decided to go back to the coven, and discovered how to deal with panic attacks.
I discovered Silk Soy Eggnog, Wow yummy stuff that at only 90 calories a glass it is worth the price.
The bad, was my Grandmother had a massive stroke on the 10th a day before her birthday and died.
It is hard to think of my world without Grandma Ida in it, she was a force to be reckoned with, smart as hell talented, and critical in the ways only an Irish Woman can be.
She was 92 and lived a long hard good life, it was unfair that all her family and friends her age were gone, and she did resent that, but she also had great confidence in the youth of today to be better that her generation, ( I wish I could share that belief.)
I was happy to realize that she got to see my Happily married, living in a cute clean house, with a good job and going back to school to get a better job.
The only thing she wanted for me was to be skinny and healthy.
I am now back at work and it is the third day of the New Year and I am both hopeful and depressed.
Depressed because I miss her, I am surrounded with her things her, bed, her chairs, her silk robe and hairbrush because they remind me of her and make me feel like she is still here.
I am having a hard time getting out of bed and getting motivated to do things, usually by this point i have a clean house, and a new slate for the new year.
I am feeling fat and ugly and lazy and I don not thing my Grandma would want that for me at all.
I am hopeful because the new quarter starts Monday and I have a new chance to ace a class, I am alive for another year and I have another chance to loose the weight and get healthy, and to generally make myself a person I would like to know.
Today I got a new haircut, and new makeup yesterday I got my oil changed so everyday is a chance for improvement.
According to Wemoon this is the year of radical balance, so that is what I am striving for.