Update
It has been awhile since I have posted, so I figured an update is required.
I am currently in my 2nd quarter of classes and so far doing well, hell I passed my midterm with a 100%, never done that before.
Work is well less a drag and more just frustrating, as I predicted they cut hours for the full and part timers and have hired per diems.
So instead of having us come in early they are giving those hours to the per diems, and those folks get to come in and work and go home early.
Listen they are wonderful people and they deserve hours, but if we are just as behind with 5 or 6 people as we are with 3, then whats the point?
All it does is stir up resentment and frustration, and it is aimed at these people and not where it should be aimed which is management.
Also, this crap is against Union rules, so in order for us to get what management and workers legally agreed on we have to fight, it is always a fight.
It makes for an uncomfortable , and frustrating work life, and I have to constantly remind myself I have a plan a goal and I have to complete it before I tell them what crap this is.
And this is where they get you huh, you need to make a living and there is crap all out there, and they know it.
The good thing is My panic attacks have reduced to almost none, I have stopped being neurotic when I drive into work or anywhere else for that matter, I no longer have the overwhelming feeling of drowning everyday.
I am actually happy with myself and my life, my marriage is great we are a unit instead of he and I just living together trying to survive.
I would still like to loose weight but I am starting to think that more than that I want to respect my body for the amazing organism it is, from the brain to the heart and lungs, the joints and muscle.
Oh and my Knee has healed it still twinges but I can jog on it, honestly I was afraid It was never going to heal and that means never riding horses again..... and that was to depressing to contemplate.
in short Life is good, and although I am still Irish, and I still see the loads of crap out there in the world and in my life, in this moment I don't care I am where I am supposed to be, with the man who I am supposed to be with, and a plan that will sustain me.
I do need to add friends back into my life, I have cut them out because it was just so much stress to the loads of stress I already had and I was not in a good place to be a very good friend, so I hope they forgive me and let me make it up to them.
I am currently in my 2nd quarter of classes and so far doing well, hell I passed my midterm with a 100%, never done that before.
Work is well less a drag and more just frustrating, as I predicted they cut hours for the full and part timers and have hired per diems.
So instead of having us come in early they are giving those hours to the per diems, and those folks get to come in and work and go home early.
Listen they are wonderful people and they deserve hours, but if we are just as behind with 5 or 6 people as we are with 3, then whats the point?
All it does is stir up resentment and frustration, and it is aimed at these people and not where it should be aimed which is management.
Also, this crap is against Union rules, so in order for us to get what management and workers legally agreed on we have to fight, it is always a fight.
It makes for an uncomfortable , and frustrating work life, and I have to constantly remind myself I have a plan a goal and I have to complete it before I tell them what crap this is.
And this is where they get you huh, you need to make a living and there is crap all out there, and they know it.
The good thing is My panic attacks have reduced to almost none, I have stopped being neurotic when I drive into work or anywhere else for that matter, I no longer have the overwhelming feeling of drowning everyday.
I am actually happy with myself and my life, my marriage is great we are a unit instead of he and I just living together trying to survive.
I would still like to loose weight but I am starting to think that more than that I want to respect my body for the amazing organism it is, from the brain to the heart and lungs, the joints and muscle.
Oh and my Knee has healed it still twinges but I can jog on it, honestly I was afraid It was never going to heal and that means never riding horses again..... and that was to depressing to contemplate.
in short Life is good, and although I am still Irish, and I still see the loads of crap out there in the world and in my life, in this moment I don't care I am where I am supposed to be, with the man who I am supposed to be with, and a plan that will sustain me.
I do need to add friends back into my life, I have cut them out because it was just so much stress to the loads of stress I already had and I was not in a good place to be a very good friend, so I hope they forgive me and let me make it up to them.