Brave New world.
I am currently trying to come up with goals for going back to school, my union offers tuition assistanceand career retraining.
I do not want to be in customer service my whole life, frankly I am already burnt out and almost done.
As with everything else in my life where a choice is neccesary I am struck with indecission and a feeling of panic in my gut.
I fear failure so I try to make choices that I know I can follow through on....this does not always work mind you sometimes It backfires and i find this is not what I wanted after all.
So I know two things for sure,
1.I need a change, a big one
2. I genneraly like working in the healthcare industry.
I also know that I enjoy working with seniors and children, and that as much as I like food nutrition is out of the question, too many of them and it is assumed that you are unhealthy if you are fat, which i am so....
I have narrowed my choices down to, Medical Assistant, Medical Office Reception, Ultra sound tech,Radiation and imaging Sciences.
I am kind of interested in Nursing but really not sure I can put up with the abuse, which is why i want out of CS.
I am open to ideas.
I know that what ever I do I have a long way to go.
I have come to a crossroads in my life, the way I have always handled things which is to pretend that they do not exist, stew about them then blow up and kill any chance I have of going back because if I dont I will go back to what is comfortable and I wont push myself I am afraid to challenge myself because failure is real and happens a lot.
In fact it happens so much i should not fear it but embrace it.
So Universe this is my plan I stay here for a years time, in this job I go back to school I work hard on my future ingnore my husband, when he says I need more hours, the folks I work with the stupidity that has taken over the place. I can suck it up for one year.
And then at the end of the year I reasses where I am at and the next step.
I do not want to be in customer service my whole life, frankly I am already burnt out and almost done.
As with everything else in my life where a choice is neccesary I am struck with indecission and a feeling of panic in my gut.
I fear failure so I try to make choices that I know I can follow through on....this does not always work mind you sometimes It backfires and i find this is not what I wanted after all.
So I know two things for sure,
1.I need a change, a big one
2. I genneraly like working in the healthcare industry.
I also know that I enjoy working with seniors and children, and that as much as I like food nutrition is out of the question, too many of them and it is assumed that you are unhealthy if you are fat, which i am so....
I have narrowed my choices down to, Medical Assistant, Medical Office Reception, Ultra sound tech,Radiation and imaging Sciences.
I am kind of interested in Nursing but really not sure I can put up with the abuse, which is why i want out of CS.
I am open to ideas.
I know that what ever I do I have a long way to go.
I have come to a crossroads in my life, the way I have always handled things which is to pretend that they do not exist, stew about them then blow up and kill any chance I have of going back because if I dont I will go back to what is comfortable and I wont push myself I am afraid to challenge myself because failure is real and happens a lot.
In fact it happens so much i should not fear it but embrace it.
So Universe this is my plan I stay here for a years time, in this job I go back to school I work hard on my future ingnore my husband, when he says I need more hours, the folks I work with the stupidity that has taken over the place. I can suck it up for one year.
And then at the end of the year I reasses where I am at and the next step.