Cat pee and Indecision.
It is July.
And there is no sun, its mostly gray and overcast with some,very little sun breaks. oh and its chilly around low 60s high 50s.
I cant stand it!!!
I miss the sun, I miss having a summer. I miss being A kid and spending summers in northern California with my Dad and Aunt and cousin.
I miss heat and swimming, and the feel of heat on your skin that lasts long after the sun goes down.
Simply put the weather is driving me bonkers.
I think we have had a total of a weeks worth of Sun, and those have all been on days I have had to work.
Wahhhhhhhhhhhhh
Aside from that or along side that I am having serious issues in the area of making decisions, I mean worse than normal.
I cant even decide what it is I want to eat, or drink or what route to take home from work, or should I walk or ride my bike, or do something with one of the horses, or call my friends, because I miss having a social life and besides couldn't they call me does the spending time together thing reside fully on my being the one to call and or connect?.
Do I want to deal with the Drama friends bring into ones life, when i can barely figure out what Im doing with mine.
I am getting frustrated with this state of being.
Although the counseling helps some.
So today I spent the day cleaning the cat/tack room, its a start.
But it is a real struggle to start a chore and an even bigger one to finish it.
So um yes I may be depressed.
And there is no sun, its mostly gray and overcast with some,very little sun breaks. oh and its chilly around low 60s high 50s.
I cant stand it!!!
I miss the sun, I miss having a summer. I miss being A kid and spending summers in northern California with my Dad and Aunt and cousin.
I miss heat and swimming, and the feel of heat on your skin that lasts long after the sun goes down.
Simply put the weather is driving me bonkers.
I think we have had a total of a weeks worth of Sun, and those have all been on days I have had to work.
Wahhhhhhhhhhhhh
Aside from that or along side that I am having serious issues in the area of making decisions, I mean worse than normal.
I cant even decide what it is I want to eat, or drink or what route to take home from work, or should I walk or ride my bike, or do something with one of the horses, or call my friends, because I miss having a social life and besides couldn't they call me does the spending time together thing reside fully on my being the one to call and or connect?.
Do I want to deal with the Drama friends bring into ones life, when i can barely figure out what Im doing with mine.
I am getting frustrated with this state of being.
Although the counseling helps some.
So today I spent the day cleaning the cat/tack room, its a start.
But it is a real struggle to start a chore and an even bigger one to finish it.
So um yes I may be depressed.