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so i had this converstation about pills and going off of them and what they do and etc with sara today. and this just kind of is what i think so i thought i would put it up here explaining why im getting off of them and not to mention im light weight fucking weird right now. see now dont get me wrong pills do sometimes for certain things help. but for my case it hasnt helped me at all. it just gives my body something to crave and make me throw up when i dont have the money to get it. funny how something thats supposed to help gives you all the same symptoms* of a hard drug.
smize05: awww that sucks
smize05: why were you sick??
smilelove02: i am getting off my anti depressants so im going through withdrawl
smilelove02: so i have been throwing up and shit
smize05: ohhhh i totally know what thats like
smize05: i did it with zoloft and paxil
smilelove02: yeah. celixa and lexapro and then my insomnia pills.
smilelove02: trazadone. haha im just one messed up little child
smize05: i had to take trazadone too
smilelove02: ahah :]
smize05: the pills dont help
smize05: lol
smize05: its just a mental thing you have to get over yourself
smize05: thats what i did
smize05: i stopped taking them and i made myself get better
smilelove02: yeah for real
smilelove02: thats why im doing it
smilelove02: pills cant make anyone better
smilelove02: mentally
smilelove02: you have to find your center off of them to ever get better
smize05: yeah dude
smilelove02: im glad someone else agrees
smilelove02: other people are liek you should not stop taking them
smilelove02: im like kjhsdf suck my dick
smize05: hahaha
smize05: pills werent there back in the day and ppl were fine
smize05: doctors just make that cash flow by handing out pills for ppl problems
smilelove02: exactly.
smilelove02: and people dont want to deal with it and admit they can be fine without something else cause they are too consumed in there everyday bullshit that they just go to the dr for everything they think is wrong. in reality they are just trying to find ways to get rid of they problems without ever having to deal with it
smize05: yep
smize05: you just have to make yourself stronger and stop feeling bad for yourself
smize05: and finding things wrong with yourself
smilelove02: exactly
smilelove02: like i have been strong enough to be off this shit for awhile but my parents would bitch at me
smilelove02: im sick of it. like its my body my mind my choice
smize05: tell them that then
smilelove02: im prefectly healthy and happy without them
smilelove02: i do.
smilelove02: they dont care.
smilelove02: haha. but whatever they dont have a choice
smize05: haha
smilelove02: but yeah right now is just the hard part of getting through the throwing up and not wanting to eat part
smize05: yeahhh
smize05: awww that sucks
smize05: why were you sick??
smilelove02: i am getting off my anti depressants so im going through withdrawl
smilelove02: so i have been throwing up and shit
smize05: ohhhh i totally know what thats like
smize05: i did it with zoloft and paxil
smilelove02: yeah. celixa and lexapro and then my insomnia pills.
smilelove02: trazadone. haha im just one messed up little child
smize05: i had to take trazadone too
smilelove02: ahah :]
smize05: the pills dont help
smize05: lol
smize05: its just a mental thing you have to get over yourself
smize05: thats what i did
smize05: i stopped taking them and i made myself get better
smilelove02: yeah for real
smilelove02: thats why im doing it
smilelove02: pills cant make anyone better
smilelove02: mentally
smilelove02: you have to find your center off of them to ever get better
smize05: yeah dude
smilelove02: im glad someone else agrees
smilelove02: other people are liek you should not stop taking them
smilelove02: im like kjhsdf suck my dick
smize05: hahaha
smize05: pills werent there back in the day and ppl were fine
smize05: doctors just make that cash flow by handing out pills for ppl problems
smilelove02: exactly.
smilelove02: and people dont want to deal with it and admit they can be fine without something else cause they are too consumed in there everyday bullshit that they just go to the dr for everything they think is wrong. in reality they are just trying to find ways to get rid of they problems without ever having to deal with it
smize05: yep
smize05: you just have to make yourself stronger and stop feeling bad for yourself
smize05: and finding things wrong with yourself
smilelove02: exactly
smilelove02: like i have been strong enough to be off this shit for awhile but my parents would bitch at me
smilelove02: im sick of it. like its my body my mind my choice
smize05: tell them that then
smilelove02: im prefectly healthy and happy without them
smilelove02: i do.
smilelove02: they dont care.
smilelove02: haha. but whatever they dont have a choice
smize05: haha
smilelove02: but yeah right now is just the hard part of getting through the throwing up and not wanting to eat part
smize05: yeahhh