sweet nothings
I have felt like updating all day, and I have a lot on my mind, so here I go.
First, I figure I will give the update of my date. For those of you who don't know, I spent my pre-superbowl looking at open houses, and ended up meeting a really cute 26 year old real estate agent. I askef her out for drinks a couple days later, and she told me she was going to an event for the St. Louis Shakespeare Society, and asked me if I would go with her. She even called to make sure that I was still planning on going, but once I got there I had a hard time talking to her. I was by far the youngest there, and there were tons of young lawyers and neurosurgions and such who wanted my dates attention. Most of the night they dominated the conversation, and they even had wingmen, so it was tough for me to get a word in. She really wasn't paying much attention to me, and by the end of the night I didnt care, so I just excused myself and left. I have very mixed feelings about the entire event. On one side, I feel like an ass, and that she totally set me up to fail. On the other half, I really want to pat myself on the back for having the balls to ask out a 26 year old and having her say yes. I guess what upsets me is that I havent been making the wisest or healthiest choices when it comes to girls this year, and this appeared to be a step in the right direction. Anyway, when I was leaving a cop was shot a few blocks away, so the entire area was on lockdown in order to rush him to the hospital. I still got back at a reasonable time and was able to get a 94 on my test, so the A streak continues.
Mini rant #1: The RA Position - I can definitely remember what it was like for me the last two years getting that letter, and I can easily sympathize with everyone. I was super excited last year, but if I was a junior this year, I really dont know if I would be back. I thought being a reslife RA would be like a year long FSAP, and it definitely is not. It is a lot like living in the midwest and going to Florida. Florida seems amazing on vacation, and you go to the beach everyday and all your problems are gone, but a family friend of ours moved there for that reason, and was dissapointed when her life really was pretty much the same. Some things are just more special in small amounts (but Orlando is still pretty sweet). Granted a lot of it is my boss, but in short if you didnt get RA, I promise it isnt the end of the world, and may even be a good thing for you.
Mini rant #2: Valentines Day - I used to hate Valentines Day, but I realized last year that I had spent too many years being bitter and simply changed my thinking. I bought a pink shirt, and just had fun with it, and it was probably one of my best Valentines since elementary school. This year, I decided I didnt have to be alone, and decided to take Tingting out to dinner. I have never been on a Valentines date, and the no pressure no expectation format of this makes it something I am really looking foward to. Yes, a girlfriend or a real date would be amazing, but with girls, whatever is going to happen is going to happen, and I just need to enjoy the ride and wherever it takes me.
I got rejected for Northwestern today, meaning I have heard from 2, rejected from 2 and still awaiting 8. Northwestern was the hardest school I had not heard from, so like Michigan, this was expected. I am not upset that I got rejected, but I am upset that I dont care more. I want to experience more emotion over all of this, whether it be positive or negative. I feel like I am sitting in the backseat of some car, looking out the window at my life, just observing whats happening along with everyone else. I am close to wrapping up a very significant segment of my life, but I feel like I have no idea what the coming days and months will bring. I have a vision of what the future could be like, and I like it a lot, but have no idea if I will get there. I remember in third grade, I had a basketball camp every Sunday. I had to wear athletic shorts and a plain white tee with a piece of masking tape with my last name on it. I can still remember the sound of the masking tape stretching out, and the smell of the perminant marker as my dad penned my name. That memory always makes me so happy, and I want another point in my life where I feel that good. In fact, I will list for my fun and yours the happiest moments of my life, in no particular order:
*Third grade basketball camp
*Freshman year spring break in Colorado
*Every moment of Youth in Government over 5 years
*Night marching band practice in Tulsa Union statium under the lights freshman year of high school
*My family birthday celebration until 16 or so
*Christmas until around the same time
*Orlando vacation summer 2004
*Summer 03 FSAP
*A couple hookups that will remain nameless
*Second semester soph. year tuesdays and thursdays: ab class, music videos and fiction writing
*drinking Coke on planes
There are more, but those stick out to me. What will I one day be able to add to the list???
First, I figure I will give the update of my date. For those of you who don't know, I spent my pre-superbowl looking at open houses, and ended up meeting a really cute 26 year old real estate agent. I askef her out for drinks a couple days later, and she told me she was going to an event for the St. Louis Shakespeare Society, and asked me if I would go with her. She even called to make sure that I was still planning on going, but once I got there I had a hard time talking to her. I was by far the youngest there, and there were tons of young lawyers and neurosurgions and such who wanted my dates attention. Most of the night they dominated the conversation, and they even had wingmen, so it was tough for me to get a word in. She really wasn't paying much attention to me, and by the end of the night I didnt care, so I just excused myself and left. I have very mixed feelings about the entire event. On one side, I feel like an ass, and that she totally set me up to fail. On the other half, I really want to pat myself on the back for having the balls to ask out a 26 year old and having her say yes. I guess what upsets me is that I havent been making the wisest or healthiest choices when it comes to girls this year, and this appeared to be a step in the right direction. Anyway, when I was leaving a cop was shot a few blocks away, so the entire area was on lockdown in order to rush him to the hospital. I still got back at a reasonable time and was able to get a 94 on my test, so the A streak continues.
Mini rant #1: The RA Position - I can definitely remember what it was like for me the last two years getting that letter, and I can easily sympathize with everyone. I was super excited last year, but if I was a junior this year, I really dont know if I would be back. I thought being a reslife RA would be like a year long FSAP, and it definitely is not. It is a lot like living in the midwest and going to Florida. Florida seems amazing on vacation, and you go to the beach everyday and all your problems are gone, but a family friend of ours moved there for that reason, and was dissapointed when her life really was pretty much the same. Some things are just more special in small amounts (but Orlando is still pretty sweet). Granted a lot of it is my boss, but in short if you didnt get RA, I promise it isnt the end of the world, and may even be a good thing for you.
Mini rant #2: Valentines Day - I used to hate Valentines Day, but I realized last year that I had spent too many years being bitter and simply changed my thinking. I bought a pink shirt, and just had fun with it, and it was probably one of my best Valentines since elementary school. This year, I decided I didnt have to be alone, and decided to take Tingting out to dinner. I have never been on a Valentines date, and the no pressure no expectation format of this makes it something I am really looking foward to. Yes, a girlfriend or a real date would be amazing, but with girls, whatever is going to happen is going to happen, and I just need to enjoy the ride and wherever it takes me.
I got rejected for Northwestern today, meaning I have heard from 2, rejected from 2 and still awaiting 8. Northwestern was the hardest school I had not heard from, so like Michigan, this was expected. I am not upset that I got rejected, but I am upset that I dont care more. I want to experience more emotion over all of this, whether it be positive or negative. I feel like I am sitting in the backseat of some car, looking out the window at my life, just observing whats happening along with everyone else. I am close to wrapping up a very significant segment of my life, but I feel like I have no idea what the coming days and months will bring. I have a vision of what the future could be like, and I like it a lot, but have no idea if I will get there. I remember in third grade, I had a basketball camp every Sunday. I had to wear athletic shorts and a plain white tee with a piece of masking tape with my last name on it. I can still remember the sound of the masking tape stretching out, and the smell of the perminant marker as my dad penned my name. That memory always makes me so happy, and I want another point in my life where I feel that good. In fact, I will list for my fun and yours the happiest moments of my life, in no particular order:
*Third grade basketball camp
*Freshman year spring break in Colorado
*Every moment of Youth in Government over 5 years
*Night marching band practice in Tulsa Union statium under the lights freshman year of high school
*My family birthday celebration until 16 or so
*Christmas until around the same time
*Orlando vacation summer 2004
*Summer 03 FSAP
*A couple hookups that will remain nameless
*Second semester soph. year tuesdays and thursdays: ab class, music videos and fiction writing
*drinking Coke on planes
There are more, but those stick out to me. What will I one day be able to add to the list???