Soo...
It's been another long while since I updated, bt I don't think that many people read this, so what does it matter anyways.
Not a whole lot has changed, but at the same time it seems almost everything has changed. Most of the changes happened without me realizing it, I guess. It always sucks to look back and realize you've grown up. :-P I've gotten so tired of the drama in my life... not that there was a lot of it, but still. I don't even find it remotely entertaining anymore. And I've gotten tired of talking to the people who always bring the drama, too. I have enough stress in my life without all the extra bullshit. Perhaps it makes me sound self-centered or whatever, but sometimes I just don't give a damn what happens to other people.
That being said, there are of course still friends I care deeply for, and would do anything for.. they are just fewer and far between now. Some people might say I'm closing myself off again, but I don't feel that I am. I'm just tired of overextending myself and getting nothing in return.
But enough emo-ness. What else has happened? I don't remember if I mentioned before, but I have my own office now. I started rearranging things Friday, and just finished today. I finally have everything situated how I want it, and not scattered all over the place. I have a total of six plants in my office now, too. Its sad to say, but they're becoming like my children. I brood over them like a mother hen, and I actually worry about them when I'm away. It sounds odd, but I've never actually had plants all to myself before. I've never been able to pick and choose what I've wanted, its always been what my parents said I could get, or what they wanted. It's quite an ecclectic group of plants, too, much like my interests in everything else. If I see something I like I get it, providing its suitable for my office and the light and all. There are still others I want to get, but I'm going to try to wait for now.
I've been more social at work too. I'd chat with coworkers before, but it was usually superficial stuff, just to be nice. I'd chat about the weather or stuff like that. Now I find myself having actual conversations though, about life and beliefs and all of that. I rarely use to talk to Leah at all, but we talk almost every day now. She likes to come and visit me and my plants. I suppose talking to her has gotten me into speaking more Spanish again. Her English is good, but sometimes it depends on what she's talking about. Sometimes the story she's telling me winds up being a fifty fifty mix of Spanish and English. We made a few people chuckle once because she was trying to tell me how to cook something, and it was such a jumble of Spanish and English that even Leah got confused. I even bought a Spanish dictionary that I keep at my desk. I've come to the realization though that I understand more Spanish than I thought I did, it's just not the GOOD kind. I've started listening to Pitbull's music again, and there is definately a lot of 'explicit content'... yet I understand most all of it. The only time I can't understand the Spanish is when he gets to rapping too fast. I know too many naughty words, and not enough clean ones I suppose.
I've quit listening to Asian music for the most part now. I imagine my mood will eventually change and I'll go back to it, but who knows when that will be. I've developed an obsession for Vin Diesel.. which is about the farthest thing from the femme asian men that I could get. I imagine in time that too will pass.
I finally have some vacation time coming up. One of my friends might come visit, or if I have the money, I might go visit someone else, who knows. I never really plan things too far in advance.
Anyways, I'm starting to get sleepy, and can't think of anything else to say.
Adios
Not a whole lot has changed, but at the same time it seems almost everything has changed. Most of the changes happened without me realizing it, I guess. It always sucks to look back and realize you've grown up. :-P I've gotten so tired of the drama in my life... not that there was a lot of it, but still. I don't even find it remotely entertaining anymore. And I've gotten tired of talking to the people who always bring the drama, too. I have enough stress in my life without all the extra bullshit. Perhaps it makes me sound self-centered or whatever, but sometimes I just don't give a damn what happens to other people.
That being said, there are of course still friends I care deeply for, and would do anything for.. they are just fewer and far between now. Some people might say I'm closing myself off again, but I don't feel that I am. I'm just tired of overextending myself and getting nothing in return.
But enough emo-ness. What else has happened? I don't remember if I mentioned before, but I have my own office now. I started rearranging things Friday, and just finished today. I finally have everything situated how I want it, and not scattered all over the place. I have a total of six plants in my office now, too. Its sad to say, but they're becoming like my children. I brood over them like a mother hen, and I actually worry about them when I'm away. It sounds odd, but I've never actually had plants all to myself before. I've never been able to pick and choose what I've wanted, its always been what my parents said I could get, or what they wanted. It's quite an ecclectic group of plants, too, much like my interests in everything else. If I see something I like I get it, providing its suitable for my office and the light and all. There are still others I want to get, but I'm going to try to wait for now.
I've been more social at work too. I'd chat with coworkers before, but it was usually superficial stuff, just to be nice. I'd chat about the weather or stuff like that. Now I find myself having actual conversations though, about life and beliefs and all of that. I rarely use to talk to Leah at all, but we talk almost every day now. She likes to come and visit me and my plants. I suppose talking to her has gotten me into speaking more Spanish again. Her English is good, but sometimes it depends on what she's talking about. Sometimes the story she's telling me winds up being a fifty fifty mix of Spanish and English. We made a few people chuckle once because she was trying to tell me how to cook something, and it was such a jumble of Spanish and English that even Leah got confused. I even bought a Spanish dictionary that I keep at my desk. I've come to the realization though that I understand more Spanish than I thought I did, it's just not the GOOD kind. I've started listening to Pitbull's music again, and there is definately a lot of 'explicit content'... yet I understand most all of it. The only time I can't understand the Spanish is when he gets to rapping too fast. I know too many naughty words, and not enough clean ones I suppose.
I've quit listening to Asian music for the most part now. I imagine my mood will eventually change and I'll go back to it, but who knows when that will be. I've developed an obsession for Vin Diesel.. which is about the farthest thing from the femme asian men that I could get. I imagine in time that too will pass.
I finally have some vacation time coming up. One of my friends might come visit, or if I have the money, I might go visit someone else, who knows. I never really plan things too far in advance.
Anyways, I'm starting to get sleepy, and can't think of anything else to say.
Adios