So um... My dad might die Thursday...
I'm torn. The day is coming where my father (whom, as most of you know, I do not get along with one bit) may pass on to the afterlife. I always figured I'd dance and throw a fucking party on that day. Right now it's like, ugh, I hope he doesn't die just so I don't have to bother with any of that shit, like my mom getting even more drunk every night. But I dreamt that he was about to die and I remember being really sad (not as sad as the dream where Ryan kicked me out, where I woke up sobbing and whimpering) .. (and Ryan didn't even notice ^^; ) But it's like.. I dunno.. I feel kinda bad.. We both have been trying to connect with one another lately, but he just makes it so difficult and I know I do too... They say that he pretty much wouldn't be--oh wait, let me explain what's going on first XD
He's having heart problems and has to go into the Cleveland Clinic on Thursday the 9th to see how much blockage there is and stuff, and if there's over a certain amount he's going to have open-heart surgery right then and there.
So yeah, they say that he pretty much wouldn't be in this predicament if it wasn't for his drinking and popping Ibuprofen (which isn't great for your heart if you use it a lot) like me eating Bottlecaps and playing Earthbound (seriously, they go hand in hand.) But they've been telling him for years that he needs to cut down on his drinking and stuff. He says he's not an alcoholic--he's a drunk. Yeeah, that's tons better. I was reading the Heroin Diaries today and it said something like Addiction--When you know you can quit anything if you want, as long as it's next Tuesday. I read that and instantly thought of my dad. No, he's not addicted to beer, and neither is my mom! They just like to have a can of beer (and by can I mean case) when they get home from work every night. But check this out, they're going through about 5 CASES of Molson a week... That's about $18 a case, for 52 weeks in a year... That's $4680 a year. And I don't even know how much he's spending on weed (and the occasional cocaine...) And then what my mom spends on cigarettes (and possibly the occasional weed...) I know it's easier said (especially coming from someone who doesn't do any of that shit) than done (by people who do the shit) but damn, give it some effort to stop! I only spend like, $30 a year on alcohol maybe, and I've never been drunk (and I'd like to keep it that way.) I only drink for a change of pace of flavor and taste (hey that's kinda catchy...) and they just drink to get drunk.. I dunno. I don't get what's so great about forgetting where you are, who you are, what's going on, what happened on St. Patrick's day... (That wasn't meant as an insult, it just still makes me chuckle and facepalm)
But yeah.
ITT--What to do when a close relative is near death
He's having heart problems and has to go into the Cleveland Clinic on Thursday the 9th to see how much blockage there is and stuff, and if there's over a certain amount he's going to have open-heart surgery right then and there.
So yeah, they say that he pretty much wouldn't be in this predicament if it wasn't for his drinking and popping Ibuprofen (which isn't great for your heart if you use it a lot) like me eating Bottlecaps and playing Earthbound (seriously, they go hand in hand.) But they've been telling him for years that he needs to cut down on his drinking and stuff. He says he's not an alcoholic--he's a drunk. Yeeah, that's tons better. I was reading the Heroin Diaries today and it said something like Addiction--When you know you can quit anything if you want, as long as it's next Tuesday. I read that and instantly thought of my dad. No, he's not addicted to beer, and neither is my mom! They just like to have a can of beer (and by can I mean case) when they get home from work every night. But check this out, they're going through about 5 CASES of Molson a week... That's about $18 a case, for 52 weeks in a year... That's $4680 a year. And I don't even know how much he's spending on weed (and the occasional cocaine...) And then what my mom spends on cigarettes (and possibly the occasional weed...) I know it's easier said (especially coming from someone who doesn't do any of that shit) than done (by people who do the shit) but damn, give it some effort to stop! I only spend like, $30 a year on alcohol maybe, and I've never been drunk (and I'd like to keep it that way.) I only drink for a change of pace of flavor and taste (hey that's kinda catchy...) and they just drink to get drunk.. I dunno. I don't get what's so great about forgetting where you are, who you are, what's going on, what happened on St. Patrick's day... (That wasn't meant as an insult, it just still makes me chuckle and facepalm)
But yeah.
ITT--What to do when a close relative is near death