Time changes all
A lot has happened since I last posted here.
I have since met the girl of my dreams. an awesome force of nature named Deb.
I now realise that to get anywhere in life and to be anyone, you have to have convictions and believe in them and not waiver under any circumstances.
This came to me as I thought to myself "I might ask work to consider an increase in my wages, I need just that bit more to make things comfortable for the both of us" but then the thought came to me, does my performance at work justify such a question? and then I thought, does my performance reflect how I feel inside myself? the answer to both those questions is no.
Tomorrow a new person emerges at work, one who takes pride in what he does and one who manages to get everything under control. I currently have a cold and my sinuses are flaring up like a mofo, but I am still going to go in and be the person that I want others to see, because right now, I do not think anyone sees me as I see myself in my minds eye.
I have bought an amazing place in Waterloo, I love it dearly. Have not moved in yet as I need to save a bit of money for furniture and a holiday and have the tenant pay a bit of the Mortgage for now.
I am going to endeavor to post more in this as I want to connect more with my inner thoughts and processes, and just think it healthy to do so.
Signing off:
Ed.
I have since met the girl of my dreams. an awesome force of nature named Deb.
I now realise that to get anywhere in life and to be anyone, you have to have convictions and believe in them and not waiver under any circumstances.
This came to me as I thought to myself "I might ask work to consider an increase in my wages, I need just that bit more to make things comfortable for the both of us" but then the thought came to me, does my performance at work justify such a question? and then I thought, does my performance reflect how I feel inside myself? the answer to both those questions is no.
Tomorrow a new person emerges at work, one who takes pride in what he does and one who manages to get everything under control. I currently have a cold and my sinuses are flaring up like a mofo, but I am still going to go in and be the person that I want others to see, because right now, I do not think anyone sees me as I see myself in my minds eye.
I have bought an amazing place in Waterloo, I love it dearly. Have not moved in yet as I need to save a bit of money for furniture and a holiday and have the tenant pay a bit of the Mortgage for now.
I am going to endeavor to post more in this as I want to connect more with my inner thoughts and processes, and just think it healthy to do so.
Signing off:
Ed.