if I turn into another, dig me up from under what is covering the better part of me
Last Wednesday night I was cleaning my room when I pulled a nightstand drawer too far out, causing it to come straight off the track and fall onto my big right toe. The result is a discolored and painful toe. That night, I clutched onto my stuffed penguin Mumble (I've had him since freshman year) the entire night. Normally I wake up and Mumble is on the floor; this might be the first night in five years he's stayed in my arms. I wanted a loved one here so bad. The sad part is that it does not look nearly as painful as it actually is. It's become incredibly difficult for me to walk, and if I could just STAY IN MY FUCKING ROOM for one full day I'd be fine.
This happened Wednesday night. Thursday I had class but didn't go to Translation (again) because of the pain. Friday there were shopping plans and I needed to help Shaina pick up something she'd ordered. If I had just stayed at home I might have been okay. (Also, I bought things. Pictures below.) Saturday, two of my friends I hadn't seen in over a year came to Nagoya all the way from Tokyo to see me and Julia. We were supposed to go to Gifu and hang out in Sakae, and initially I was going to bail on both things but managed to make it to Sakae and we all went to eat parfaits at Cat's Garden, one of my favorite restaurants in Sakae (right across from Suipara!). I should NOT have gone, that would have been the smart thing to do. It was great seeing Ayumi and Chiharu again though.
Today was supposed to be my first full day of rest and what do I do? Go grocery shopping. fml. Seriously, why can't I stay inside for one day? I am hikikomori at heart and have had consecutive days when I don't leave I-House, so WHY NOW? Because I've suddenly got to go to all of these places, my pain stays around a 7-9 on a scale of 1-10, and my toe is continuing to turn terrible colors. The skin has turned LEGIT blue (aquamarine?) right below the nail base, which freaked me out until my bath tonight when I was inspecting it - I think it's because a new toenail is growing in. Ah, baths. While already a favorite part of my night (especially when I have some sort of bath salts to add), this has also become one of the few times I can get away with keeping my foot NOT elevated and relax. As the days have gone on, soaking it feels better and better. I've heard soaking it in epsom salts is healthiest, but I don't really have any of that so I've just been using regular bathwater. Tonight I added some bath salts ("babu" brand to be exact) and it really helped.
I haven't been to the doctor yet. Depending on how it looks/feels tomorrow morning, I'll make my decision, but I don't think I'll go. I'm afraid to go to the doctor here because I've heard some horror stories. I don't want them doing anything painful to it (>_<); I'm also not so keen on spending a bunch of money just to be given some weak-ass painkillers. I'm something of a hypochondriac, so my mind has been jumping to "am I going to lose my toe!?!?!?!?" But I've been giving my toe little massages each night to keep the blood flowing, icing it, and I am still able to bend it just fine; in fact, now I can bend it the same way I can my regular toes. And as my mom would say, it's too far from my brain to be fatal...kinda weird she hasn't told me that yet, actually. At this point I don't care if the nail falls off. I'm expecting it. I just want my toe to begin healing because this is without a doubt my busiest month.
I talked to Will about it on Friday morning when it wasn't a big deal, but this evening before my bath I cried to him because I was freaked out. He calmed me down and explained things rationally. He's always been the anti-drama to my own dramatic tendencies, and I'm so thankful for that. My mom has been helpful as well, and I've sent her a total of three pictures since it happened for advice. For now I'm going to take tomorrow to relax, so we'll see where I am Tuesday morning.
Anyway, let's look at cute clothes.
CECIL McBEE has been having some pretty bombtastic sales, so this was my goal on Friday. Was it worth the added pain for my toe? Probably not, but at least the trip was not made in vain...or maybe it was (o_o) Clothes shopping's kinda superficial if you ask me.
I saw this skirt online and wanted to try it on before buying. They were sold out of the color I wanted online and only had the one you see here, and while they had both colors in the store I ended up LOVING the other one more, it looks so much prettier in person. This is my first long skirt and I'm pretty happy about it. (Shaina ended up getting the other color, so we now have two things that match in design :D [she now has the PJ gingham/plaid dress I bought but in pink])
This shirt was a last-minute buy as I was waiting for friends to finish trying on things. Saw it, loved it, tried it on and it looked great \:D/ Of course, the sunburns I'm going to get with this might be interesting, much like another CECIL top I own that has open-sleeves like this. Stripes are really big here, and I've started making it a game of counting how many striped clothes I see people wearing.
I don't know why but I really wanted a pair of CECIL earrings and these have been on sale for some time <3 It's two multi-layered hearts, the back one being empty and the front saying "CECIL McBEE" with a rhinestone. Or cubic zirconia, who knows. It's shiny.
Saw this and ordered it on the website the day before we went shopping; Julia got it in navy (blue stripes with a white tank) and I got the one you see above. It should be arriving tomorrow (^^) They had the navy one in the store and we were pretty happy to see it looks awesome in person :D
You know, in some ways my foot injury is going to be a good thing in disguise. I no longer have the desire to go shopping - even if I had the burning urge I couldn't thanks to my limp. I still have three more FULL weeks here, which means 3+ more weeks of needing to make money stretch while all my friends who leave earlier get to spend it now, haha. xD Hopefully be healed (or at least not hobbling) by the time I can spend money!!
This happened Wednesday night. Thursday I had class but didn't go to Translation (again) because of the pain. Friday there were shopping plans and I needed to help Shaina pick up something she'd ordered. If I had just stayed at home I might have been okay. (Also, I bought things. Pictures below.) Saturday, two of my friends I hadn't seen in over a year came to Nagoya all the way from Tokyo to see me and Julia. We were supposed to go to Gifu and hang out in Sakae, and initially I was going to bail on both things but managed to make it to Sakae and we all went to eat parfaits at Cat's Garden, one of my favorite restaurants in Sakae (right across from Suipara!). I should NOT have gone, that would have been the smart thing to do. It was great seeing Ayumi and Chiharu again though.
Today was supposed to be my first full day of rest and what do I do? Go grocery shopping. fml. Seriously, why can't I stay inside for one day? I am hikikomori at heart and have had consecutive days when I don't leave I-House, so WHY NOW? Because I've suddenly got to go to all of these places, my pain stays around a 7-9 on a scale of 1-10, and my toe is continuing to turn terrible colors. The skin has turned LEGIT blue (aquamarine?) right below the nail base, which freaked me out until my bath tonight when I was inspecting it - I think it's because a new toenail is growing in. Ah, baths. While already a favorite part of my night (especially when I have some sort of bath salts to add), this has also become one of the few times I can get away with keeping my foot NOT elevated and relax. As the days have gone on, soaking it feels better and better. I've heard soaking it in epsom salts is healthiest, but I don't really have any of that so I've just been using regular bathwater. Tonight I added some bath salts ("babu" brand to be exact) and it really helped.
I haven't been to the doctor yet. Depending on how it looks/feels tomorrow morning, I'll make my decision, but I don't think I'll go. I'm afraid to go to the doctor here because I've heard some horror stories. I don't want them doing anything painful to it (>_<); I'm also not so keen on spending a bunch of money just to be given some weak-ass painkillers. I'm something of a hypochondriac, so my mind has been jumping to "am I going to lose my toe!?!?!?!?" But I've been giving my toe little massages each night to keep the blood flowing, icing it, and I am still able to bend it just fine; in fact, now I can bend it the same way I can my regular toes. And as my mom would say, it's too far from my brain to be fatal...kinda weird she hasn't told me that yet, actually. At this point I don't care if the nail falls off. I'm expecting it. I just want my toe to begin healing because this is without a doubt my busiest month.
I talked to Will about it on Friday morning when it wasn't a big deal, but this evening before my bath I cried to him because I was freaked out. He calmed me down and explained things rationally. He's always been the anti-drama to my own dramatic tendencies, and I'm so thankful for that. My mom has been helpful as well, and I've sent her a total of three pictures since it happened for advice. For now I'm going to take tomorrow to relax, so we'll see where I am Tuesday morning.
Anyway, let's look at cute clothes.
CECIL McBEE has been having some pretty bombtastic sales, so this was my goal on Friday. Was it worth the added pain for my toe? Probably not, but at least the trip was not made in vain...or maybe it was (o_o) Clothes shopping's kinda superficial if you ask me.
I saw this skirt online and wanted to try it on before buying. They were sold out of the color I wanted online and only had the one you see here, and while they had both colors in the store I ended up LOVING the other one more, it looks so much prettier in person. This is my first long skirt and I'm pretty happy about it. (Shaina ended up getting the other color, so we now have two things that match in design :D [she now has the PJ gingham/plaid dress I bought but in pink])
This shirt was a last-minute buy as I was waiting for friends to finish trying on things. Saw it, loved it, tried it on and it looked great \:D/ Of course, the sunburns I'm going to get with this might be interesting, much like another CECIL top I own that has open-sleeves like this. Stripes are really big here, and I've started making it a game of counting how many striped clothes I see people wearing.
I don't know why but I really wanted a pair of CECIL earrings and these have been on sale for some time <3 It's two multi-layered hearts, the back one being empty and the front saying "CECIL McBEE" with a rhinestone. Or cubic zirconia, who knows. It's shiny.
Saw this and ordered it on the website the day before we went shopping; Julia got it in navy (blue stripes with a white tank) and I got the one you see above. It should be arriving tomorrow (^^) They had the navy one in the store and we were pretty happy to see it looks awesome in person :D
You know, in some ways my foot injury is going to be a good thing in disguise. I no longer have the desire to go shopping - even if I had the burning urge I couldn't thanks to my limp. I still have three more FULL weeks here, which means 3+ more weeks of needing to make money stretch while all my friends who leave earlier get to spend it now, haha. xD Hopefully be healed (or at least not hobbling) by the time I can spend money!!