Collection of Dreams
So yeah, I think at least once a week I dream something about Japan and/or Zuka. Still.
At least twice now I've dreamed myself back in Japan, both times with sumire_no_hana (my subconscious is proving how much I miss a certain someone ;____;) I can't really remember the details... I think I was supposed to be back at my old apartment, but it looked like the room I'm sleeping in now. Or something. I was excited to be back, but disappointed that I'd forgotten the things I'd bought for Manda. (Someone should be getting a package soon... :D)
Then the other night I dreamed the action came to my place -- it was definitely the house I'm in now -- a bunch of friends were here watching something on the big TV. I remember ekusudei among them, at least, because while we were all hanging out there with some announcement with roles for a new show, and Masaki's was something that started with Pl- or Pr- which everyone immediately started turning into "Puru-puru-chan".
...Yeah I seriously don't know but XD XD XDDD
Then in the same dream Shin showed up with her pink bike (disclaimer: I am not aware if she actually owns a pink bike or not) in the front room of our house. I think she... parked it there? And then went out again to help my mom with gardening.
I really, really don't know <------- My mom hardly spends any time gardening <---------
Last week I had a dream that involved black leotards, a line dance, me falling on my ass and Chiko-chan asking me if I was okay. Ummmmm moving on.
The sad dream was maybe two weeks ago... I was at an outdoor event -- where I don't know -- with these little rows of bleachers. I was wandering around, maybe looking for a seat, and saw Mayu-chan and Keito sitting in the back row.
Yeah. Those ones retiring. Yeah.
Even in my dream I knew it was true, and so did other people because some fan went up to talk to them. I probably wanted to do the same thing but didn't have the guts. I looked around again and K-san from Eriko club was there, dressed up a really nice.
That's all I remember.
It's a little bit of a test of will to post this. I know posting about my dreams at all is silly, but somehow I feel that most of my internet friends will just smile and shake their heads along with me. Now, however, there's also the nagging feeling that some faceless, mean-spirited Japanese people could be reading my words and mocking me.
I know it's stupid. I mean, foreign fans could be mocking me behind my back just as well.
I probably shouldn't be writing this. Even as I dictate it it just sounds like a ploy to get people to tell me they care, again. God, I hope I'm not this whiny for much longer. But for some reason I feel compelled to voice my paranoia.
What the heck. I'm posting this publicly anyway.
Oh and hey, I can end on a good note -- yesterday I wrote letters to my Yukibabies (Kari-chan, Chiko-chan and Ami-chan♥♥♥) and today I put them in the mail and it made me feel really good :) ♬ Fandom! I can still do it! ^^
At least twice now I've dreamed myself back in Japan, both times with sumire_no_hana (my subconscious is proving how much I miss a certain someone ;____;) I can't really remember the details... I think I was supposed to be back at my old apartment, but it looked like the room I'm sleeping in now. Or something. I was excited to be back, but disappointed that I'd forgotten the things I'd bought for Manda. (Someone should be getting a package soon... :D)
Then the other night I dreamed the action came to my place -- it was definitely the house I'm in now -- a bunch of friends were here watching something on the big TV. I remember ekusudei among them, at least, because while we were all hanging out there with some announcement with roles for a new show, and Masaki's was something that started with Pl- or Pr- which everyone immediately started turning into "Puru-puru-chan".
...Yeah I seriously don't know but XD XD XDDD
Then in the same dream Shin showed up with her pink bike (disclaimer: I am not aware if she actually owns a pink bike or not) in the front room of our house. I think she... parked it there? And then went out again to help my mom with gardening.
I really, really don't know <------- My mom hardly spends any time gardening <---------
Last week I had a dream that involved black leotards, a line dance, me falling on my ass and Chiko-chan asking me if I was okay. Ummmmm moving on.
The sad dream was maybe two weeks ago... I was at an outdoor event -- where I don't know -- with these little rows of bleachers. I was wandering around, maybe looking for a seat, and saw Mayu-chan and Keito sitting in the back row.
Yeah. Those ones retiring. Yeah.
Even in my dream I knew it was true, and so did other people because some fan went up to talk to them. I probably wanted to do the same thing but didn't have the guts. I looked around again and K-san from Eriko club was there, dressed up a really nice.
That's all I remember.
It's a little bit of a test of will to post this. I know posting about my dreams at all is silly, but somehow I feel that most of my internet friends will just smile and shake their heads along with me. Now, however, there's also the nagging feeling that some faceless, mean-spirited Japanese people could be reading my words and mocking me.
I know it's stupid. I mean, foreign fans could be mocking me behind my back just as well.
I probably shouldn't be writing this. Even as I dictate it it just sounds like a ploy to get people to tell me they care, again. God, I hope I'm not this whiny for much longer. But for some reason I feel compelled to voice my paranoia.
What the heck. I'm posting this publicly anyway.
Oh and hey, I can end on a good note -- yesterday I wrote letters to my Yukibabies (Kari-chan, Chiko-chan and Ami-chan♥♥♥) and today I put them in the mail and it made me feel really good :) ♬ Fandom! I can still do it! ^^