Alex ( Read more... )

I quit.

I can't keep doing this. Fuck it. Alex is cold to me. John hates me. Bobby's gone.

It all hurts so damn much. More than I can stand. Make it stop. Can't keep hurting like this.

I just can't.

Alex disappeared today. Sorta. In his place I have Lex. Younger. Apparently a lot better world than mine. But not my Alex.

I think I'm going to do something tonight that is either exceedingly stupid or brilliant. Won't know until I do it.

Here's to praying.

Got to fire a gun. I apparently suck at this. But Alex says with practice I'll get better ( Read more... )

And just when I think my life can't get any odder... it does ( Read more... )

Stupid song is still in my head ( Read more... )

I did something today either brazenly stupid or wildly brave.

I'm not sure there is a difference.

Two days, no sleep. I remember this feeling. Disconnected, disjointed. But reality seems so much crisper ( Read more... )