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Well, I just had my first training session at the gym with Sief, it went well. I love Sief...he is a really good person, and he is going to get me sexy, baby! I had the talk with my mom that moved out to avoid...i am moving out again, but on civil terms. She is going to help me out with rent and what not...whatever i cant take of myself basically. I also found out that my mother makes negative amounts of money. Hm...great, for me. Her business showed a loss of $4500 last year..what does this mean for me? this means...i can get FREE MONEY. So hopefully i can get a few thousand dollars in grants and that will pay my living expenses. Things are coming together...the fallen pieces are going to be fixed. The crying is about stopped. I wasn't crying because i was heartbroken though, crying more because...it has all been such a mess. Such a mess.
The only thing i need to stop doing is wondering if he is already having sex with other women. I shouldn't care...i guess im just so disgusted with him, i wonder if he is more disgusting then i think he already is. A lot of my life has been tied to him...gym memberships i pay for that i have to cancel....blockbuster accounts...a credit card I cosigned on--which, i plan on calling the company and trying to get my name taken off that or just close the account period. So it has kind of caused me to not stop thinking about it, like I would like to, but i guess you cant just expel someone from your mind that you were with for a year, huh?
Other then a few setbacks....im doing as well as can be expected. I am proud of myself. And screaming to Kelly Clarkson CDs has helped ;)
The only thing i need to stop doing is wondering if he is already having sex with other women. I shouldn't care...i guess im just so disgusted with him, i wonder if he is more disgusting then i think he already is. A lot of my life has been tied to him...gym memberships i pay for that i have to cancel....blockbuster accounts...a credit card I cosigned on--which, i plan on calling the company and trying to get my name taken off that or just close the account period. So it has kind of caused me to not stop thinking about it, like I would like to, but i guess you cant just expel someone from your mind that you were with for a year, huh?
Other then a few setbacks....im doing as well as can be expected. I am proud of myself. And screaming to Kelly Clarkson CDs has helped ;)