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SHE HAS KIDS?!?!!?!?!?!?!??!
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!!?????!?!?!?!?!!?!?
I can not believe this. AT ALL. You always were the safe one, always the one to check the condom afterwards, always the one to freak out when i was a couple days late and go buy a pregnancy test. and now your dating some chick that already has TWO kids...and she's OUR age!?!?! WTF!!?!?
Part of me...the optimistic part...is thinking you're just acting like you're dating her to try and make me jealous...then the other part...obviously the pessimistic part, is thinking that you really have moved on, and you're over me.
i hate my pessimistic part. I still want a chance. everyone deserves a second chance. if i knew that there was some glimer of hope for us...if you texted or called or emailed anything with a chance in it tomorrow....he would be gone. and that sounds terrible, like im leading ryan on, and maybe i am...but who's to say ryan won't eventually make me happy? if you don't give me a chance, and i finally get over you, ryan could easily make me very happy. but as of right now...im still hoping for that chance, and im definately not over you.
GOD. i want to talk to you sooooooo bad. i want to hear your voice. i want to see the look in your eyes when i tell you i would do anything in this world to get you back. i want to talk to you face to face. you have NO idea how much i miss you :(
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!!!?????!?!?!?!?!!?!?
I can not believe this. AT ALL. You always were the safe one, always the one to check the condom afterwards, always the one to freak out when i was a couple days late and go buy a pregnancy test. and now your dating some chick that already has TWO kids...and she's OUR age!?!?! WTF!!?!?
Part of me...the optimistic part...is thinking you're just acting like you're dating her to try and make me jealous...then the other part...obviously the pessimistic part, is thinking that you really have moved on, and you're over me.
i hate my pessimistic part. I still want a chance. everyone deserves a second chance. if i knew that there was some glimer of hope for us...if you texted or called or emailed anything with a chance in it tomorrow....he would be gone. and that sounds terrible, like im leading ryan on, and maybe i am...but who's to say ryan won't eventually make me happy? if you don't give me a chance, and i finally get over you, ryan could easily make me very happy. but as of right now...im still hoping for that chance, and im definately not over you.
GOD. i want to talk to you sooooooo bad. i want to hear your voice. i want to see the look in your eyes when i tell you i would do anything in this world to get you back. i want to talk to you face to face. you have NO idea how much i miss you :(