Bridges burnt.

[wangu]

I'm done here. For what it was worth, I love all my friends. I'm just shitty at expressing it or behaving properly. I have a lot of stuff I could have said, but it's too goddamn late now. As long as you're alive, there is hope. And you get to learn stuff. The world is beautiful place. And I'm gonna keep living in it

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[so_low]

Some things I need to say yet:

1) CALL AL. Or he will call you. If you really want to talk to him, don't avoid it. Don't give him "well I have this and that". If you value your friendship, call him! It was wrong of me to assume that, when I asked Jess to talk to Al for me, that she did. I should know better and talked to Al myself. That was wrong of me. I didn't, and it didn't get me anywhere. So please take some responsibilty into your hands and TALK.

2) No self pity! Don't avoid everyone, and don't give me that "I-know-so-and-so-doesn't-like-me-even-tho-I-haven't-talked-it-out-with-them" nonsense. That is NOT going to help you or anyone else!

3) I also am not going to keep picking you up and brushing you off everytime something bad happens. I am your friend and I will always help you and support, but I'm not going to spoon-feed you. Hold up your head and take some responsibilty. You'll feel better about it, and trust me, people will have more respect for you.

4) You told me that "My LJ entries are me at my worst", which I am sure is true. it's venting. But when you apparently TOLD Al to read it, well... I can't defend that. There's a difference between blowing off steam and that.

5) This is not a hopeless situation. We're your friends. We care. But you gotta work with us too! Just remember that. Keep that 'internalized' instead of all that other junk. ;)

6) And take care.

[wangu]

I fixed a lot of the stuff in this entry between now and then. Lookit the time stamp. He called me last night and we're gonna talk things out today.

And yeah, I did. I didn't realize I had put something offensive in there. To me the entry was a cry for help, not an upraised middle finger.

At any rate, things are sort of sorting themselves out, but I'm not gonna be totally comfortable for a little while. As for the taking responsibility thing, that's what I've been told by Al to do too, I'm working on it.

I'm okay, though. That was just sort of my farewell post, though I'm still commenting on other people's journals and the like.