Jan 09, 2006 19:03
I'm done here. For what it was worth, I love all my friends. I'm just shitty at expressing it or behaving properly. I have a lot of stuff I could have said, but it's too goddamn late now. As long as you're alive, there is hope. And you get to learn stuff. The world is beautiful place. And I'm gonna keep living in it.
Yeah my heart is broken into little chunks by now. (Not by romance.) But that's okay. I'll get through it assuming sifu doesn't kick me out of kung fu tomorrow. I'll make sure by talking to him a little bit. I don't want to offend anyone else, but I'm sure I am.
I'm so scared of losing what's left, you know. I dread the idea that if I offend 1 or two more people I'll have no place to be on any night of the week.
2 things are really important to me at this point, or should be. My job and my grandfather who just had the heart attack. Everything else is just kinda bullshit. No matter how much it hurts.
I think I'm gonna start writing the City of Bloody Sunsets again.
After that? Who knows.
Wait, and Hope.