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broken, exhausted, lonely, depressed.
enlightened, soothed, crushed, uproar.
I may be in pain, I will not go softly...
Crystals bday tonight nice party... decided not to go. maybe a good thing? stomache pains came back today so bad I couldn't move. found myself in deep meditation and almost temporary enlightenment(from pauses in the stomach tremors)
Don't know what i'm doing anymore. don't know the reason i'm living. I feel like shit. and I need something to do cause this just isn't cutting it anymore. gonna try to make up for the missed birthday tomorrow. maybe even surf(that one's a long shot) and eventually make up with shauna. I really have no direction anymore. I feel like a drunk redneck firing into the sky. yehaw mutherfucker.
enlightened, soothed, crushed, uproar.
I may be in pain, I will not go softly...
Crystals bday tonight nice party... decided not to go. maybe a good thing? stomache pains came back today so bad I couldn't move. found myself in deep meditation and almost temporary enlightenment(from pauses in the stomach tremors)
Don't know what i'm doing anymore. don't know the reason i'm living. I feel like shit. and I need something to do cause this just isn't cutting it anymore. gonna try to make up for the missed birthday tomorrow. maybe even surf(that one's a long shot) and eventually make up with shauna. I really have no direction anymore. I feel like a drunk redneck firing into the sky. yehaw mutherfucker.