Blaaaaaaaaaaaargh!
So, despite my better intentions, I'm seething with jealousy. Miss Cassie has apparently managed to find herself with the attentions of numerous suitors, at least one of which she seems interested in herself. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I certainly don't want to go through a nightmare of competition and mistrust. But, I don't really know any thing factual along those lines, so I'm just gonna go on as I have been, and just kinda try and tune it out. It just makes things difficult for me... it's hard to be pleasant and witty with a girl when you're wondering if she's just playing a game with you. It was quite difficult to enjoy myself on our last date as a result of that.
Oh well, things will work out as they will.
On other fronts, I've been feeling a bit depressed lately, I'm having trouble mustering up my usual levels of good cheer at the job, and I seem to be keeping to myself more. I think I just need to worry less and relax, and my natural good cheer will emerge. But in order to relax, I think it would be greatly helpful to have something exciting and exhilarating, and since things with Cassie, although exciting, are worrying me as much as they're exhilarating me I probably need to find myself something else to get me stoked.
My books are still getting me pumped though, I just finished reading "A Crown of Swords" by Robert Jordan (book 7 of the Wheel of Time series) and "The Grim Grotto" by Lemony Snicket (11th in A Series of Unfortunate Events) and moved on to "Snow Crash" by Neal Stephenson which so far is amazing. It's a dark tale of a world of Capitalizm and pizza delivery that has not failed to have me laughing and entranced with every paragraph. More on this front when I finish.
Well, tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and I work until 5pm at which point I will try to find something to entertain myself with in the way of the traditional countdown party, so that I wont find myself ringing in the new year alone watching a crappy rented DVD and confiding in my cat about my desperate isolation. Shouldn't be too hard, being back in Michigan.
After that, my world is a free and unexciting limbo, and we'll see what my will can mold it into... hopefully a bit of thrills and a bit of confusion, just enough to keep me from feeling miserably complacent.
Well, have a good New Year's all, and as always feel free to drop me a line here or at my email address, or call... or just stop by Zingerman's if you're local.
Peace,
Dre
Oh well, things will work out as they will.
On other fronts, I've been feeling a bit depressed lately, I'm having trouble mustering up my usual levels of good cheer at the job, and I seem to be keeping to myself more. I think I just need to worry less and relax, and my natural good cheer will emerge. But in order to relax, I think it would be greatly helpful to have something exciting and exhilarating, and since things with Cassie, although exciting, are worrying me as much as they're exhilarating me I probably need to find myself something else to get me stoked.
My books are still getting me pumped though, I just finished reading "A Crown of Swords" by Robert Jordan (book 7 of the Wheel of Time series) and "The Grim Grotto" by Lemony Snicket (11th in A Series of Unfortunate Events) and moved on to "Snow Crash" by Neal Stephenson which so far is amazing. It's a dark tale of a world of Capitalizm and pizza delivery that has not failed to have me laughing and entranced with every paragraph. More on this front when I finish.
Well, tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and I work until 5pm at which point I will try to find something to entertain myself with in the way of the traditional countdown party, so that I wont find myself ringing in the new year alone watching a crappy rented DVD and confiding in my cat about my desperate isolation. Shouldn't be too hard, being back in Michigan.
After that, my world is a free and unexciting limbo, and we'll see what my will can mold it into... hopefully a bit of thrills and a bit of confusion, just enough to keep me from feeling miserably complacent.
Well, have a good New Year's all, and as always feel free to drop me a line here or at my email address, or call... or just stop by Zingerman's if you're local.
Peace,
Dre