presence... not presents

[wamvic]

ya know, my friend, if there's something on your mind, let me know. If there's something i don't know, let me know. Because if i'm doing or not doing something or not saying something, how am i supposed to know what you want unless you say something. I mean honestly, i'm not going to play this dumb little game of cat and mouse. I played it once before and i was left confused and alone, and i don't need that, i'm better than that my dear. If there is something you want to be with me, by all means, ask me. If there's something you want to do with me, by all means, suggest away. BUT if anything, don't play this emotional rollercoaster, because i'm a little too old to be playing games with kids a year still younger than me. If you can't grow up, dear sir, than i don't want to deal with you. I stopped talking to you and hanging out with you, and seeking you outside of my schedule, because i realized that you were an immature, self centered, arrogant, kind of person. i realized those weren't the people i needed in my life and i made a decision. I am completely able and willing to make that decisions again, but still i am wondering, what were those kisses for?

Please respond to me, unlike my e-mail, and do be specific. Be vague, broad, direct, i like that because that tells me you know what you're talking about. If it's not necessary, don't bulk it up with big words, because it all breaks down to something simple in the end. Look, i'm sorry, my compadre, if this sounds harsh, but i just can't waste time, making haste is what i have time for and i still will be there for you, i just need to be blunt. It's honesty, and that's something, i'm not even sure if you always are. I don't trust that you're not, i'm just not sure if everything you say or do is sincere, JUST enlighten me. Why don't guys talk???? ugh... good night..

i'm sry, merry Christmas... [: