Not so much everything as a whole, but the day to day.  Not so much relieved from the pressure as just ignoring it.  Not better, just numb ( Read more... )

Someone stick their fingers in the notches ( Read more... )

I wish no one a happy halloween. I wish you, instead, to learn some things about your country ( Read more... )

I want something warmer, though I'm all ready burnt up. I want something colder, though the freeze has cracked my cup. Putting the wrong thing out when we made love..... putting my heart out when we made love..... my heart and not my eyes. The passion was clouded with my addiction. The passion was clouded with my lust..... the passion was clear ( Read more... )

Can words even be found? I'm pulling I'm pulling the strings so fucking tight and I feel looser and looser by the minute. Maybe holding on tighter isn't what I should be doing. Maybe if I stop pulling and start loosening, maybe then once and for all everything will just fall away from me and I'll have to worry about it no longer. I should have ( Read more... )

BURN IT TO THE FUCKING GROUND

what am I waiting for? is there something I'm expecting to get that I haven't gotten before? what do I keep checking? things are still the same.

When you wrap something up in string or in yarn or in whatever you want, doesn't that mean you want it to stay together? Doesn't it seem like it only falls apart quicker? I wish you'd stop tugging at these strings, sometimes they're all I've got.

or maybe that was just a dream..... am I more alive in my dreams? Sometimes, sometimes I am. Sometimes I don't dream. Sometimes I don't live. If I tell you a dream as though it happened I'm not lying, just lost. Lost between the days, the months, the years, lost between moments when I am awake and moments when I am asleep, lost between here ( Read more... )

Things come together, things fall apart. Can't have everything. Don't have nothing. So good that it turned bad. So bad that it turned good. Caught up in the balance of everything. Some people don't get it. Some people never will. They don't understand the balance, which is another balance in itself. Things are torn apart, things are sewn ( Read more... )