Oct 03, 2011 01:24
So, I finally found time to update my internet space. :)
University is okay so far, not the best, tempted to say it's bad but I guess I'm dealing with it. Hehe, life's no doubt stressful, really. I feel like I'm constantly catching up, I'm not really on the ball, definitely not ahead, my head is just barely above the water, not exactly easy to breathe, close to drowning more like it.
Mid sems are finally over. I guess I really really felt God helping me in my Physics paper. I've always thought I was pretty hopeless at Physics, that's why I dropped my H2 Physics. I felt even more shitty when I first flipped through my term test. Not going into the details, but basically, I don't think I did pretty well, but my results were definitely not my own.
I haven't really found great friends in school, as in, I found good friends of course, OG mates, classmates, but not really someone who i can really open up to. There will always be people whom I can laugh and joke with, but when it comes to telling them things, it's different. I guess it's normal. Feel quite lonely in my room sometimes, it's almost 130am already!
Man, I miss my old life.
I'm perfectly fine with doing things alone. Eating alone, studying alone. In fact, sometimes I secretly enjoy it, although it really does get a little lonely at times. So I've set many projects for myself. I wanted Project Mug, but it reminded me of Project Mug (PJM), a project which Andy and me created and we had a Mission Mug as well. Haha, all these seem so so long ago, college days. When we'll study by the study benches and he'll always be the one buying lunch for me. Life was pretty mundane yet happy. He'll be smiling to himself while doing Maths cause of Muttons on the 98.7, I'll be telling him to stop listening and concentrate. Our goal was just A levels. Feels like we've come quite far. I feel like everything's so long ago. Like suddenly, I jumped to being 19 years old. Not that old, compared to the guys around me, but it feels a little overwhelming and scary. I'm definitely not the same Claire. Sometimes I feel like I lost my spark somewhere along the way, but no matter what, I'm still glad to be who I am.
And I'm turning 19 soon. Only a few people actually read this space. Like Nicholas :) Haha! It's funny when Andy's not around for my Birthday and I might be just spending it in my room watching movies. No lah, I'm not upset or anything, or asking people to celebrate with me. It's really not a very big deal. :)
Day 1 of Project Independence, not really very successful. Hope it gets better as more days pass. :)