I Feel So Alone
I've been up all night.
Despite having taken Ambien last night I could not sleep. I found something out that I did not want to know. I am angry and hurt. Anxious, sad, and betrayed. I don't even feel all that good about going to the movie tonight.
My mother is beginning to get a little disturbed at my habit of sleeping on the couch instead of in my room, I think. I feel so much more... nap-like on the couch. It's easier and more "restful" for me to nap than "go to sleep," if that makes any sense.
Around 06:30 I couldn't lay on the couch or in bed trying to sleep anymore so I got up and went to Starbucks for a bit. I had a cup of coffee and wrote lyrics in my notebook (some of which I posted to my journal) and went for a short drive. When I came home, I made myself some Yin Hao Jasmine with honey and curled back up on the couch to watch How It's Made.
I very much want some sleep.
But then I get anxious again...
I feel so alone :(
Despite having taken Ambien last night I could not sleep. I found something out that I did not want to know. I am angry and hurt. Anxious, sad, and betrayed. I don't even feel all that good about going to the movie tonight.
My mother is beginning to get a little disturbed at my habit of sleeping on the couch instead of in my room, I think. I feel so much more... nap-like on the couch. It's easier and more "restful" for me to nap than "go to sleep," if that makes any sense.
Around 06:30 I couldn't lay on the couch or in bed trying to sleep anymore so I got up and went to Starbucks for a bit. I had a cup of coffee and wrote lyrics in my notebook (some of which I posted to my journal) and went for a short drive. When I came home, I made myself some Yin Hao Jasmine with honey and curled back up on the couch to watch How It's Made.
I very much want some sleep.
But then I get anxious again...
I feel so alone :(