Reflection
Oh man, i miss you.
I remember warm summer days
when i could see you.
We used to throw ball together, remember?
you wanted me to go pro at the age of 8,
always looking ahead.
When i played basketball,
you would just watch,
loving every moment of it.
When i started tennis
the first thing we talked about was wimbeldon.
I have never missed anybody
as much as i miss you now.
Just talking to you would fill me up.
But as a child i was selfish.
When you asked me to help,
i either forgot or didn't want to.
I really do regret that.
I would load the dishwasher,
cut the yard, and rake for one hundred years
if i knew i could see you again.
It has been too long since i have talked about you
It has been too long since i have said i love you
It has even been too long since i have thought about you.
How bout that, there are days i dont even think.
This is hard, really hard.
I remember when i spent the night,
the first thing i would do,
was rub your cheek, to see,
if you had shaven. And then you'd try and bite my hand.
That always scared me.
even when i saw it coming.
I miss your smile,
your personality, your love.
I haven't even come to visit you
since you passed away.
not much of a grandson am i?
not much of a man either.
Do you remember our easter egg hunts, in the back yard?
Or the slip in slide in the back yard
or the hunting
or the fishing
or the ball games
Nana's and Papa's Pals.
I have taken it all for granted.
When you left for heaven, all those feelings,
i still found hard to express, my feelings exploded.
My dad said he thought i would be the one who wouldn't cry,
but i cried the hardest.
when it exploded,
and then i realized that the time had passed where i could show you how much i love you.
And i really really do, with all my heart.
What about the times you took me to church,
or the time i got lossed in wal-mart
do you remember those?
..............
Do you remember the last time we spoke?
because i dont. I wish for all my life i could remember.
but i dont remember it at all
and i am so sorry!
I am so sorry.
I am so sorry.
I haven't even come to visit you.
I have been so scared to disappoint you with who i have become.
I remember at the funeral,
they said your deepest desire for your Grandchildren
was for us to draw close the Jesus.
I remember being offended.
Even then i took your words for granted.
but now that memory is etched in my heart forever.
On that day, just like every other day.
I saw your heart.
And im sorry that this is the first time i have shown you mine.
I remember warm summer days
when i could see you.
We used to throw ball together, remember?
you wanted me to go pro at the age of 8,
always looking ahead.
When i played basketball,
you would just watch,
loving every moment of it.
When i started tennis
the first thing we talked about was wimbeldon.
I have never missed anybody
as much as i miss you now.
Just talking to you would fill me up.
But as a child i was selfish.
When you asked me to help,
i either forgot or didn't want to.
I really do regret that.
I would load the dishwasher,
cut the yard, and rake for one hundred years
if i knew i could see you again.
It has been too long since i have talked about you
It has been too long since i have said i love you
It has even been too long since i have thought about you.
How bout that, there are days i dont even think.
This is hard, really hard.
I remember when i spent the night,
the first thing i would do,
was rub your cheek, to see,
if you had shaven. And then you'd try and bite my hand.
That always scared me.
even when i saw it coming.
I miss your smile,
your personality, your love.
I haven't even come to visit you
since you passed away.
not much of a grandson am i?
not much of a man either.
Do you remember our easter egg hunts, in the back yard?
Or the slip in slide in the back yard
or the hunting
or the fishing
or the ball games
Nana's and Papa's Pals.
I have taken it all for granted.
When you left for heaven, all those feelings,
i still found hard to express, my feelings exploded.
My dad said he thought i would be the one who wouldn't cry,
but i cried the hardest.
when it exploded,
and then i realized that the time had passed where i could show you how much i love you.
And i really really do, with all my heart.
What about the times you took me to church,
or the time i got lossed in wal-mart
do you remember those?
..............
Do you remember the last time we spoke?
because i dont. I wish for all my life i could remember.
but i dont remember it at all
and i am so sorry!
I am so sorry.
I am so sorry.
I haven't even come to visit you.
I have been so scared to disappoint you with who i have become.
I remember at the funeral,
they said your deepest desire for your Grandchildren
was for us to draw close the Jesus.
I remember being offended.
Even then i took your words for granted.
but now that memory is etched in my heart forever.
On that day, just like every other day.
I saw your heart.
And im sorry that this is the first time i have shown you mine.