...I guess I wish you well. A little bit of Heaven, and a little Bit of Hell...
You know, it's bad enough to not have a real reason when someone breaks your effing heart and dumps you.
And yes, I admit it was very stupid to text phil for an hour and a half the next day.
But I was intoxicated.
Not saying that it an excuse.
...
And anyways, what the hell was he thinking last night?!?!?!?!
I had a perfectly nice day. Kelly called me, I stopped shutting out the world, I didn't go to work, and I cleaned.
It was an okay day.
I cried for only like, 3 minutes.
Then I cried before I went to bed just to make sure I'd fall asleep quickly (no seriously, it helps)
and what do I get at 2:41 in the effing morning?!:
Phil:Goodnight...
Me: Why did you just text me? I'm so sorry for last friday. I was too embarassed to call you...
Phil: I just wanted to say goodnight... To someone
Me: Sweet dreams : /
Phil: Why the : / ?
Me: I guess I'm just shocked/upset.relieved/confused why you chose me...But it was just to anyone...so goodnight.
Phil: You can't look at it as just anyone.
Me: I'm sorry I can't do this.
Phil: Im sorry
Me: It's just...It's the best and worse thing, to hear from you. And I'm still so embarassed
Phil: Don't be what is done is done.
Like seriously, what the hell?!
I'm sorry. you can't have both worlds. You can't break my heart and expect me to love hearing from you. ( I mean I do love hearing from him, but it only makes this so much harder) I want to punch him and hug him at the same time. I'm sorry, phil, you can only get away with being a nice guy for so long. And you know what? You just crossed the line. Last night was a dick move because you know how I still feel about you. You think you can just string me along like you did all year and you know what? I'm sick of it. I'm sick of getting physically ill every time I think about you. I can't keep doing this. How dare you mess me all up like this again!
and you said you care about me?
ok.
::sigh:: Work went by fast today. which was a nice change. Now I'm trying to hang out with the wife and company but no one has a car. I hate Dearborn.
And yes, I admit it was very stupid to text phil for an hour and a half the next day.
But I was intoxicated.
Not saying that it an excuse.
...
And anyways, what the hell was he thinking last night?!?!?!?!
I had a perfectly nice day. Kelly called me, I stopped shutting out the world, I didn't go to work, and I cleaned.
It was an okay day.
I cried for only like, 3 minutes.
Then I cried before I went to bed just to make sure I'd fall asleep quickly (no seriously, it helps)
and what do I get at 2:41 in the effing morning?!:
Phil:Goodnight...
Me: Why did you just text me? I'm so sorry for last friday. I was too embarassed to call you...
Phil: I just wanted to say goodnight... To someone
Me: Sweet dreams : /
Phil: Why the : / ?
Me: I guess I'm just shocked/upset.relieved/confused why you chose me...But it was just to anyone...so goodnight.
Phil: You can't look at it as just anyone.
Me: I'm sorry I can't do this.
Phil: Im sorry
Me: It's just...It's the best and worse thing, to hear from you. And I'm still so embarassed
Phil: Don't be what is done is done.
Like seriously, what the hell?!
I'm sorry. you can't have both worlds. You can't break my heart and expect me to love hearing from you. ( I mean I do love hearing from him, but it only makes this so much harder) I want to punch him and hug him at the same time. I'm sorry, phil, you can only get away with being a nice guy for so long. And you know what? You just crossed the line. Last night was a dick move because you know how I still feel about you. You think you can just string me along like you did all year and you know what? I'm sick of it. I'm sick of getting physically ill every time I think about you. I can't keep doing this. How dare you mess me all up like this again!
and you said you care about me?
ok.
::sigh:: Work went by fast today. which was a nice change. Now I'm trying to hang out with the wife and company but no one has a car. I hate Dearborn.