demented screams, tortured beings, where's your hope
so much has been going on over the last week. i spent almost all of last week at my dad's house and then went to the speedway for the weekend. i haven't been talking to very many people because of the circumstances, but my best friend was around when i needed her and she babysit my babies for me [who i get back today] lets hope bear wasn't a bully to bandit ...
i got into a huge fight with my mom last week about my school semester. she had almost all of my money for the semester and spent it and then didn't tell me about it so three weeks before the semester i have to ask her about it and she tells me that she doesn't have it. i know that things come up and you need to understand my situation about it, which is a little personal to put in my livejournal. so i decide to just leave my house so i go and stay at my dad's for a few days. wasn't that great over there because of my brother who gets on my nerves, but i just needed to get away from my mom. i worked and went for a job interview [which i got] and then went to michigan international speedway for the weekend and decided to come home. me and my mom are on speaking terms, which is more than i can say about last week. i just don't know what i'm going to do.
i went to both nascar races this year and the june race was better even though it got red flagged because of the rain. i like going because it gets me away and i love being able to escape on top of the motorhome and watch the race in person and have nothing to worry about. t and this year it just wasn't that great. i mean i don't drink, but still have an amazing time, but the drunks are really starting to bother me. i did see michael, brent, and drew again :] i told them i'd go back in june but i'm not one hundred percent on that because i don't know if i want to go. i get hounded by a bunch of guys to flash them, which i don't do and then i have people say shit to me about going to bed early and not drinking. its just something that you get used to but it sucks because i hate being hounded over stupid shit as my choices in life. if i go back in june i'm going to take my tent and just pitch it behind the motorhome or something. i can put up with the noise of the generators around me, but i don't want to share a tiny bed or listen to people snoring all night long. i think i would get more sleep. ugh, stupid choices.
so i made a new friend at the beginning of the month and then on saturday we almost stopped talking in general because of some things left unsaid. i was really hurt that we weren't going to be friends because he's a great guy and we get along really well and have a lot in common. we met up yesterday and talked and we got everything worked out. we're going to be friends and nothing more. i mean i'm completely head over heels for steve and am not risking that since i've been waiting seven months for him to come home and he's almost home. these last few months have gone by fast for me, but i still miss him everyday and can't wait for him to come home.
well there's nothing else for me to say other than i get to see my best friend for the first time in over a week and i get my babies back and tigers game tonight :]
i miss my marine
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