i just wanna be with you
So yesterday as whoever reads this knows, I got extremely pissed off because my long entry didn't save, but that doesn't stop me from writing. I know you all hate reading my long pointless entries but that isn't going to change anything because I'm still not going to stop writing about nothing in particular.
over the last two days i've been extremely sad and there's only two people that i told about why because they're the only two people to actually ask and take notice to my sudden mood change. I'm not going to go into a long explanation about why because frankly it doesn't really matter to any of you anyway. I'll probably be like this for a few more days but I have things to look forward to over the next few days so that should help a little bit. I just wish I knew :[
My cousin's officially fly into Michigan in exactly fourty eight hours from now and I'm competely stoaked to see them and my aunt. Its been a long two years since I last seen them and probably won't see them again until next summer when my oldest cousin Brian graduates from high school. It sucks that they live so far away and I hate the heat but we all make sacrifices for things that are important to us.
My sister's graduation party is on Sunday, which means I get to talk to a lot of people and see a lot of people that I haven't seen in ages. I'm not sure that's a good thing either. I hate how there's so many problems with my family and I go forever without seeing my dad's whole side. The only reason I see them occassionally now is because they seem to think we should care a little more since Jim's death. I frankly think that they should all crawl back under their stupid rocks and stay out of my life, but some people will disagree with me on that. I guess its pretty sad when the last of your grandparents is slowly dying and you don't even give a damn. People will think that makes me cold hearted, but if you ask me, I'm not. Why should I care when they never did? I don't want to be the bigger person ... Never did Never will
I'm going to finish my late night snack and go to bed ... Say nice things to cheer me up :/
over the last two days i've been extremely sad and there's only two people that i told about why because they're the only two people to actually ask and take notice to my sudden mood change. I'm not going to go into a long explanation about why because frankly it doesn't really matter to any of you anyway. I'll probably be like this for a few more days but I have things to look forward to over the next few days so that should help a little bit. I just wish I knew :[
My cousin's officially fly into Michigan in exactly fourty eight hours from now and I'm competely stoaked to see them and my aunt. Its been a long two years since I last seen them and probably won't see them again until next summer when my oldest cousin Brian graduates from high school. It sucks that they live so far away and I hate the heat but we all make sacrifices for things that are important to us.
My sister's graduation party is on Sunday, which means I get to talk to a lot of people and see a lot of people that I haven't seen in ages. I'm not sure that's a good thing either. I hate how there's so many problems with my family and I go forever without seeing my dad's whole side. The only reason I see them occassionally now is because they seem to think we should care a little more since Jim's death. I frankly think that they should all crawl back under their stupid rocks and stay out of my life, but some people will disagree with me on that. I guess its pretty sad when the last of your grandparents is slowly dying and you don't even give a damn. People will think that makes me cold hearted, but if you ask me, I'm not. Why should I care when they never did? I don't want to be the bigger person ... Never did Never will
I'm going to finish my late night snack and go to bed ... Say nice things to cheer me up :/