life is crazy...

[wafflemuffin]

i dont know what to do with myself latley. i am lonley. i have candee but i dont always feel completely comforatable talking to her about everything. i dont know...i just wish i had someone to talk to....someone who would actually listen to me. that would be so cool.
everything is pretty much the same as the last time i updated. all i do is work and hang out at home and smoke pot..its not so bad.
i saw nick the other day. he called and left a message on my machine, it wasnt very nice. i was pissed so i called him back to yell at him and he was upset...so i fell for it again. we started talking and he told me that he missed me and that he still thought about me and that he made a huge mistake breaking up with me....i dunno...i fell for it and thought i might actually have a chance with him again...but he is in love with...her. i dunno. i hate her. i dont know her but i hate her....she makes him feel so rotten and i hate her for that. i know i made him feel rotten and i hated myself for it...but as rotten as i made him feel i knew i loved him a million times more...i dunno..i hoped that would make up for something. i dunno.
i just he would be my starving college student....not hers....
life is crap...