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oh my god it has been forever and a day since i wrote in this thing...so much has happened its not even funny.
well...first i graduated..it was amazing...ive been working all summer, its really cool. rays is awesome. i was supposed to leave in july to sac for school....but life doesnt always go the way you want it to. its ok tho....because even if im not where i want to be, im happy. me and candace got our own place together. its so exciting. we have alot of fun. we kicked mark out yesterday...it was scary at first, but it turned out ok...i mean otherwise there isnt a whole lot. just work and billls, and liquor....yep..im done drinking tho....i have a problem with knowing when to stop.
i think im pretty much over nick. i called him the other day and it wasnt even that bad. he was polite and he actually talked to me. it was neat. he is in sac going to school doing exactley what he wants to do, and hes happy and i am happy for him. its cool cuz i thought id never forgive him and that i would hurt forever....but im ok. i found out why he really dumped me....it sucks but i didnt flip out or anything. i cried a little because he made me feel so bad about myself, like it was my fault when really he was just feeling guilty. Aaron was the one who told me that corrine was only 13 when nick met her on yahoo personals, a month before we broke up, and that that weekend he left me at home and went to "davis" was to go meet her. i was upset...but there isnt anything i can do about it. i know tho that it wasnt my fault and that the things he said to me werent true. it doesnt matter tho. its in the past....i really am a grown up now.
i wish he could see me now....i do. i think he would be proud. maybe if he hadnt met me in such a crazy time in my life things would have been ok....oh well.....it was a learning experiance if anything.
dude....i love candee so much. she is so awesome. she sticks by me no matter what and she listens and shes great. im wouldnt want anyone else in the world by my side...
i dunno...im just feeling really good right now. i went to carle to see everyone and they all told me how great i look and how much weight i lost and its cool. its all the healthy way too...no drugs just excercise. really too..all i do anymore is eat and work..i muct have lost like 25pds..its cool...im gonna go now and do something...im happy for the fisrt time in a long time and its cool....
well...first i graduated..it was amazing...ive been working all summer, its really cool. rays is awesome. i was supposed to leave in july to sac for school....but life doesnt always go the way you want it to. its ok tho....because even if im not where i want to be, im happy. me and candace got our own place together. its so exciting. we have alot of fun. we kicked mark out yesterday...it was scary at first, but it turned out ok...i mean otherwise there isnt a whole lot. just work and billls, and liquor....yep..im done drinking tho....i have a problem with knowing when to stop.
i think im pretty much over nick. i called him the other day and it wasnt even that bad. he was polite and he actually talked to me. it was neat. he is in sac going to school doing exactley what he wants to do, and hes happy and i am happy for him. its cool cuz i thought id never forgive him and that i would hurt forever....but im ok. i found out why he really dumped me....it sucks but i didnt flip out or anything. i cried a little because he made me feel so bad about myself, like it was my fault when really he was just feeling guilty. Aaron was the one who told me that corrine was only 13 when nick met her on yahoo personals, a month before we broke up, and that that weekend he left me at home and went to "davis" was to go meet her. i was upset...but there isnt anything i can do about it. i know tho that it wasnt my fault and that the things he said to me werent true. it doesnt matter tho. its in the past....i really am a grown up now.
i wish he could see me now....i do. i think he would be proud. maybe if he hadnt met me in such a crazy time in my life things would have been ok....oh well.....it was a learning experiance if anything.
dude....i love candee so much. she is so awesome. she sticks by me no matter what and she listens and shes great. im wouldnt want anyone else in the world by my side...
i dunno...im just feeling really good right now. i went to carle to see everyone and they all told me how great i look and how much weight i lost and its cool. its all the healthy way too...no drugs just excercise. really too..all i do anymore is eat and work..i muct have lost like 25pds..its cool...im gonna go now and do something...im happy for the fisrt time in a long time and its cool....