I'll be here while your on your way ; counting down `till I get to see your face.
:-( Bored, and REEEEEEEEEEEAALLLY depressed. Blahhh. Jay's in Florida until thursday. It sucks big time. I spend everyday with him... and now im like clueless as to what to do with my time while hes away. Hung out with Mark and Tom yesterday. They deaded their "beef" lol sry... which was GRRRRRREAT because their my closest friends and it wud really blow having them argue and fight with eachtoher all the time. I missed Mark. We ended up getting a bottle and we just chilled at my house like we usually do and I dunno, I thought it was gonna be boring cus my house is just like that but it turned out to be really fun. I didn't really drink all the much tho. I dunno, it didnt feel right and i just didnt really want to. Tom and Mark got drunk tho, I had only two shots and we ended up TRYING to play softball while they both were waisted. LOL, that was eventful. After that we ate and just chilled in my room and talked. Mark talked to me**** (made me smile A LOT)<333
But right now im waiting for my hair to dry so I can straighten it and then go to my gram's to spend time with her because I havn't really done that in a REALLY long time.
I was thinking a lot about my friends and the way things used to be because lately shit with everyone has changed so much and it made me realize crap. I dunno, i obviously don't see billy anymore. I dont know why Billy and Jay arnt close like they used to be because honestly, I never wanted it to turn out like it is. I never have a problem with them hanging out I'm just angry with the way things turned out with me and him. I don't know what I did to him. I don't understand it AT ALL. I seriously loved that kid like he was my brother. I trusted him with my life and I always had so much fun with him. He was like a part of the family and now he just, isnt around. Maybe I cared more about us being friends then he ever did... I dont know why I was so dumb. I just dont understand what the fuck I did tho? Like seriously, we have so many memories and I got so close to him and EVERYTHING. I never thought shit wud turn out like this.
I dunno, I had ISS friday which was good. Lol... yeah good. Why was it good, it was good because it gave me time to realize that i need to fucking get my work in which for like 6 hrs straight all I did was study and do. Ahhh, it was a good thing I had it because now I have a chance to actually pass some of my classes. YAYAY FOR ME!!!!!!
Butttt im gonna go and do my hair now because its mad late and I gotta get going. Bye lovey's.
xoxoxoxo* MwUAh<33
But right now im waiting for my hair to dry so I can straighten it and then go to my gram's to spend time with her because I havn't really done that in a REALLY long time.
I was thinking a lot about my friends and the way things used to be because lately shit with everyone has changed so much and it made me realize crap. I dunno, i obviously don't see billy anymore. I dont know why Billy and Jay arnt close like they used to be because honestly, I never wanted it to turn out like it is. I never have a problem with them hanging out I'm just angry with the way things turned out with me and him. I don't know what I did to him. I don't understand it AT ALL. I seriously loved that kid like he was my brother. I trusted him with my life and I always had so much fun with him. He was like a part of the family and now he just, isnt around. Maybe I cared more about us being friends then he ever did... I dont know why I was so dumb. I just dont understand what the fuck I did tho? Like seriously, we have so many memories and I got so close to him and EVERYTHING. I never thought shit wud turn out like this.
I dunno, I had ISS friday which was good. Lol... yeah good. Why was it good, it was good because it gave me time to realize that i need to fucking get my work in which for like 6 hrs straight all I did was study and do. Ahhh, it was a good thing I had it because now I have a chance to actually pass some of my classes. YAYAY FOR ME!!!!!!
Butttt im gonna go and do my hair now because its mad late and I gotta get going. Bye lovey's.
xoxoxoxo* MwUAh<33