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Well, a big day starts when I wake up. 8am sharp. Sleeping will be fun. I'm still getting pangs of ... whatever's wrong with me. Its kinda strange that I should hope it continues, so that its there for them to pick up. Find out what's wrong with me... These freakish bursts of adrenaline in my chest are actually kind of annoying anymore. Its bad sometimes. But almost like a dizzy spell. If I concentrate I can almost force it away. But it shouldn't be there in the first place. So we'll see what's up with me
My only real concern is they may find something serious. Not terminal mind you. I have tendencies to get kind of like a hypochondriac. But I'm not that paranoid. I just don't want to be held up in a hospital for a week or so. That'll suck...
In case this is my last chance for a while (who knows) I want to, again, thank everyone who's been here for me through both emotional and physical turmoil. I know I probably won't be able to sleep. But I'm gonna go ahead and try. I was at my brother's earlier. He's got crap going on at work so he took the night off and decided to rent some movies. So I hung out there and watched a movie. Didn't really get my mind off things. Weather Man is one of those angsty horrible movies. Even if it is well acted. The plot just drags you down. Didn't have time for another movie to make up for it. I was kinda hoping I'd be able to hang out with someone a bit. But nobody feel guilty or anything, please.
In stupider news... There's still so much I wanted to ask, or say. And if I get kept at the hospital it all won't matter. Who's gonna care a week or two from now? All I can say is ... I haven't lied, or candy coated anything. I haven't said anything to be mean either. Probably wondering what the heck I'm talking about, but I just wanted to say above all else. I've been totally honest.
Now I'm going to bed. Hope to catch you all tomorrow night. If not, I'll be sure to fill all in as soon as I can :) Take care everyone. I love (most of) you
And Jess, my thoughts are with you; so best of luck. Pull 'er through :)
And Amber. I know you'll likely never see this. But I get the feeling that was a booty call. I'm flattered. But that probably means you're drunk. Not that I'd take you up on it even if you were sober. But don't take that the wrong way. I just have more respect for you than that. Too bad you don't have such respect yourself :/
Goodnight everyone. And take care all :D
My only real concern is they may find something serious. Not terminal mind you. I have tendencies to get kind of like a hypochondriac. But I'm not that paranoid. I just don't want to be held up in a hospital for a week or so. That'll suck...
In case this is my last chance for a while (who knows) I want to, again, thank everyone who's been here for me through both emotional and physical turmoil. I know I probably won't be able to sleep. But I'm gonna go ahead and try. I was at my brother's earlier. He's got crap going on at work so he took the night off and decided to rent some movies. So I hung out there and watched a movie. Didn't really get my mind off things. Weather Man is one of those angsty horrible movies. Even if it is well acted. The plot just drags you down. Didn't have time for another movie to make up for it. I was kinda hoping I'd be able to hang out with someone a bit. But nobody feel guilty or anything, please.
In stupider news... There's still so much I wanted to ask, or say. And if I get kept at the hospital it all won't matter. Who's gonna care a week or two from now? All I can say is ... I haven't lied, or candy coated anything. I haven't said anything to be mean either. Probably wondering what the heck I'm talking about, but I just wanted to say above all else. I've been totally honest.
Now I'm going to bed. Hope to catch you all tomorrow night. If not, I'll be sure to fill all in as soon as I can :) Take care everyone. I love (most of) you
And Jess, my thoughts are with you; so best of luck. Pull 'er through :)
And Amber. I know you'll likely never see this. But I get the feeling that was a booty call. I'm flattered. But that probably means you're drunk. Not that I'd take you up on it even if you were sober. But don't take that the wrong way. I just have more respect for you than that. Too bad you don't have such respect yourself :/
Goodnight everyone. And take care all :D