I Won't Say I'm In Love Part 1
Title: I Won't Say I'm In Love Part 1
Author: helldarkangel.
Disclaimer: I do not own Dir en grey or any of the members involved in this fic. Nor am I making money off of this (I whish I was though because I coulds use it).
Chapters: one shot
Rating: Will be NC-17 later.
Genre: Romance (or my attempt at it al least)
Theme: 02. Autumn
Pairing: Kaoru x Shinya
Synopsis: Shinya is hurt by an old love. Kaoru wants to heal him but Shinya won't let anyone close to his heart.
Comment: I was listening to the Disney song "I Won't Say I'm In Love" in spanish and decided that this would be a lovely title for this fic ^^ I swear I just heard the word Miyavi in the song. o.O Maybe he's part spanish. That explains the Senor Senora Senorita song.
I Won't Say I'm in Love (mexican)
YSI MU
More Disney Songs At rosesinthetrash
If there's a prize for rotten judgment
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!
What did I get myself into? When did I start to feel this way? It can’t happen though. Stop being nice to me Kaoru. I didn’t ask for you to love me. I can’t love you. I promised myself that I wouldn’t get involved with another band mate after that happened.
“Shinya are you alright.” Kaoru asked as he placed a hand on Shinya’s forehead. The drummer has been spacing out all day and Kaoru was worried about the younger man. “Shinya you don’t look so good. Maybe you need to get some fresh air.” Shinya looked up at Kaoru’s worried face and nodded.
Fresh air. Yes that would be nice.
“Alright.” Kaoru turned his attention to the practice room. Everyone had left from a smoke. “Toshiya!” Kaoru called when he saw his friend enter the room. Toshiya gave Kaoru a questioning look. “Would you tell the others that practice is canceled? I’m taking Shinya to get some fresh air.”
“Sure Kaoru.” Toshiya said. Toshiya looked at Shinya and glared at the young man. Ever since Toshiya broke up with Shinya he had been giving the other man strange looks. Especially when Kaoru was around him.
“Let’s go Shinya.” Kaoru said as he tried to help the other man up. But being Shinya he wouldn’t have it. He pushed Kaoru aside and got up himself. He could still feel Kaoru behind him however.
Leave me alone Kaoru. I didn’t ask for this. Stop following me!
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Shinya walked to the park, Kaoru still behind him. The autumn wind blew in his hair causing strands of auburn to cover his face. A hand gracefully pushed the hair back. Kaoru took Shinya’s face in his hand and stared into his eyes.
You look at me like you want to know me but you can’t. I don’t want to get hurt anymore and every time I look into your hopeful eyes it hurts. Please stop loving me Kaoru. I’ve been hurt before and I don’t want to put my heart through that again.
Kaoru’s eyes softened as he looked at Shinya. “Shinya.” He whispered as his voice was carried away by the chilly wind. He leaned in so that their lips touched. It didn’t even feel like a kiss. After a few minutes of just light touching Kaoru pulled away. “You’re cold.” He said.
Kaoru, who had remembered to grab his jacket on the way out, removed it and placed it around Shinya. Shinya grabbed onto the jacket. He could feel tears gather in his eyes but he wouldn’t let them fall. He wouldn’t let Kaoru see just how much he wanted this because he couldn’t.
It’s better this way right?
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
Why are you doing this to me Kaoru? Why do you keep trying. Even after months you are still trying.
“Remember this place Shinya?” Shinya looked up at Kaoru then he looked around the park. “When we first started Dir en grey we came to this park.” Kaoru said as he walked around. Shinya followed him. “Ha ha remember this!” He exclaimed as he climbed on to a little kiddies slide.
“Kaoru you are going up it the wrong way.” But Kaoru didn’t care. He just smiled and slide down the slide despite it being way to small for him.
Can it really be like this? Can we have such a carefree time together? How do I know that you won’t hurt me?
“Shinya come try this!”
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
Shinya walked over to Kaoru. Kaoru sat at the bottom of the kid slide. He was looking up at Shinya with a silly smile on his face. Shinya couldn’t help but laugh at the older man. He was acting like a child. When Shinya’s laugher died down he replaced it with a gentle smile. Kaoru’s face returned the smile.
Maybe it can be like this. Maybe our love can be like this.
Shinya placed his hands on Kaoru’s shoulders. He leaned down and softly pressed his lips to Kaoru’s. Kaoru returned the kiss and wrapped his arms around Shinya.
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love
Author: helldarkangel.
Disclaimer: I do not own Dir en grey or any of the members involved in this fic. Nor am I making money off of this (I whish I was though because I coulds use it).
Chapters: one shot
Rating: Will be NC-17 later.
Genre: Romance (or my attempt at it al least)
Theme: 02. Autumn
Pairing: Kaoru x Shinya
Synopsis: Shinya is hurt by an old love. Kaoru wants to heal him but Shinya won't let anyone close to his heart.
Comment: I was listening to the Disney song "I Won't Say I'm In Love" in spanish and decided that this would be a lovely title for this fic ^^ I swear I just heard the word Miyavi in the song. o.O Maybe he's part spanish. That explains the Senor Senora Senorita song.
I Won't Say I'm in Love (mexican)
YSI MU
More Disney Songs At rosesinthetrash
If there's a prize for rotten judgment
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!
What did I get myself into? When did I start to feel this way? It can’t happen though. Stop being nice to me Kaoru. I didn’t ask for you to love me. I can’t love you. I promised myself that I wouldn’t get involved with another band mate after that happened.
“Shinya are you alright.” Kaoru asked as he placed a hand on Shinya’s forehead. The drummer has been spacing out all day and Kaoru was worried about the younger man. “Shinya you don’t look so good. Maybe you need to get some fresh air.” Shinya looked up at Kaoru’s worried face and nodded.
Fresh air. Yes that would be nice.
“Alright.” Kaoru turned his attention to the practice room. Everyone had left from a smoke. “Toshiya!” Kaoru called when he saw his friend enter the room. Toshiya gave Kaoru a questioning look. “Would you tell the others that practice is canceled? I’m taking Shinya to get some fresh air.”
“Sure Kaoru.” Toshiya said. Toshiya looked at Shinya and glared at the young man. Ever since Toshiya broke up with Shinya he had been giving the other man strange looks. Especially when Kaoru was around him.
“Let’s go Shinya.” Kaoru said as he tried to help the other man up. But being Shinya he wouldn’t have it. He pushed Kaoru aside and got up himself. He could still feel Kaoru behind him however.
Leave me alone Kaoru. I didn’t ask for this. Stop following me!
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Shinya walked to the park, Kaoru still behind him. The autumn wind blew in his hair causing strands of auburn to cover his face. A hand gracefully pushed the hair back. Kaoru took Shinya’s face in his hand and stared into his eyes.
You look at me like you want to know me but you can’t. I don’t want to get hurt anymore and every time I look into your hopeful eyes it hurts. Please stop loving me Kaoru. I’ve been hurt before and I don’t want to put my heart through that again.
Kaoru’s eyes softened as he looked at Shinya. “Shinya.” He whispered as his voice was carried away by the chilly wind. He leaned in so that their lips touched. It didn’t even feel like a kiss. After a few minutes of just light touching Kaoru pulled away. “You’re cold.” He said.
Kaoru, who had remembered to grab his jacket on the way out, removed it and placed it around Shinya. Shinya grabbed onto the jacket. He could feel tears gather in his eyes but he wouldn’t let them fall. He wouldn’t let Kaoru see just how much he wanted this because he couldn’t.
It’s better this way right?
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
Why are you doing this to me Kaoru? Why do you keep trying. Even after months you are still trying.
“Remember this place Shinya?” Shinya looked up at Kaoru then he looked around the park. “When we first started Dir en grey we came to this park.” Kaoru said as he walked around. Shinya followed him. “Ha ha remember this!” He exclaimed as he climbed on to a little kiddies slide.
“Kaoru you are going up it the wrong way.” But Kaoru didn’t care. He just smiled and slide down the slide despite it being way to small for him.
Can it really be like this? Can we have such a carefree time together? How do I know that you won’t hurt me?
“Shinya come try this!”
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
Shinya walked over to Kaoru. Kaoru sat at the bottom of the kid slide. He was looking up at Shinya with a silly smile on his face. Shinya couldn’t help but laugh at the older man. He was acting like a child. When Shinya’s laugher died down he replaced it with a gentle smile. Kaoru’s face returned the smile.
Maybe it can be like this. Maybe our love can be like this.
Shinya placed his hands on Kaoru’s shoulders. He leaned down and softly pressed his lips to Kaoru’s. Kaoru returned the kiss and wrapped his arms around Shinya.
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love