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i'm going to see if i can clear up my own feelings about madison...i knew i would forgive her even as i said she's out...but that's just a part of me you know? i try as much as i can to be more like Jesus...i give more of myself and forgive people really easily...although that has always been a part of me even before i truly believed...and after reading that book, i found more reason to forgive her, even though most would say not to...the real question is...infatuation, or not?
i like this picture a lot
first of all, i don't even remember starting to like her as more than a friend...i don't think i have, actually...but for some reason it still nags me so i have to figure this out...initially, when i first saw her, i didn't even think she was that cute...i mean, she was cute...but in the realm of track girls, she just didn't seem that hot...i'm being honest here, i don't mean to be mean...so i wasn't really attracted to her when i found out that she wanted to get to know me...but there was no way i was going to turn down the chance to get to know a cute girl, because it's never been that way before for me...with some random girl wanting to get to know me...i mean, that's why i got all nervous in the first place and didn't talk to her that day she came to our meet...
so when i first met her, there wasn't really that physical attraction, so it doesn't seem like infatuation...but as i got to know her, she became more and more beautiful...i mean, if i were to look at her now, i would think she were one of the most beautiful people i know, inside and out...
i just realized something amazingly crazy
ok, so like i talked about in the last entry, the book said we approach relationships in the following order: physical, emotional, psychological, social, spiritual
i know i haven't explained all the phases yet, but in God's prescription for relationships...it is the exact opposite...meaning you start from spiritual, then go social, psychological, emotional, physical....now the spiritual isn't what you think...i know i groaned when i first read that, but when he explained it, it's just a matter of having a clear understanding of Go'd entire prescription for love, sex, and lasting relationships...which isn't what i had thought it meant...but yeah, anyway
the crazy thing is, this is exactly how my relationship with madison has been developing...our first "date," i did something crazy...i brought up religion very cautiously, and she turned out to be very Christian like myself...and that was a huge relief for me because then i was able to share my testimony without too much discomfort...for some reason i had wanted to share it with her...this was God's way of making some conversation for me...so i mean, we developed this spiritual base right here
and after is supposed to be the social phase...which is pretty well summed up by the author:
"This next phase in building relationships according to our unwritten code involves the partners being drawn into one another's social circles. They meet each other's family and close friends."
and here i meet madison's family...and they are incredibly nice to me...they're all very proud of me, because i can run and because i'm going to a good college...of course, the only part about this phase is that madison hasn't met my parents, but knowing my mom, there's not really any point in them meeting...heh yeah...although madison has met some of my good friends, and they approve haha...and she approves...
psychological phase is just the point where
"the stresses of life and the varied experiences created by the physical, emotional, and social aspects of the relationship create certain questions and needs in the relationship"
basically a test of where the relationship is so far...and you know what, the more i think about this, the scarier it gets...because there's a natural progression if everything works so well here...and i'm just so young and inexperienced to already be thinking about this...
but as for now, i'd like to get to know her better...and she once told me she wants me to meet her friends...so it's ok that she never called me before she left for new york...i suppose she had her reasons...and whatever they are, i've already forgiven her so it doesn't even matter...i just want to see her...this is exciting, but scary
does anybody actually read these from beginning to end? could you leave a comment (anonymous if you must) if you do
i like this picture a lot
first of all, i don't even remember starting to like her as more than a friend...i don't think i have, actually...but for some reason it still nags me so i have to figure this out...initially, when i first saw her, i didn't even think she was that cute...i mean, she was cute...but in the realm of track girls, she just didn't seem that hot...i'm being honest here, i don't mean to be mean...so i wasn't really attracted to her when i found out that she wanted to get to know me...but there was no way i was going to turn down the chance to get to know a cute girl, because it's never been that way before for me...with some random girl wanting to get to know me...i mean, that's why i got all nervous in the first place and didn't talk to her that day she came to our meet...
so when i first met her, there wasn't really that physical attraction, so it doesn't seem like infatuation...but as i got to know her, she became more and more beautiful...i mean, if i were to look at her now, i would think she were one of the most beautiful people i know, inside and out...
i just realized something amazingly crazy
ok, so like i talked about in the last entry, the book said we approach relationships in the following order: physical, emotional, psychological, social, spiritual
i know i haven't explained all the phases yet, but in God's prescription for relationships...it is the exact opposite...meaning you start from spiritual, then go social, psychological, emotional, physical....now the spiritual isn't what you think...i know i groaned when i first read that, but when he explained it, it's just a matter of having a clear understanding of Go'd entire prescription for love, sex, and lasting relationships...which isn't what i had thought it meant...but yeah, anyway
the crazy thing is, this is exactly how my relationship with madison has been developing...our first "date," i did something crazy...i brought up religion very cautiously, and she turned out to be very Christian like myself...and that was a huge relief for me because then i was able to share my testimony without too much discomfort...for some reason i had wanted to share it with her...this was God's way of making some conversation for me...so i mean, we developed this spiritual base right here
and after is supposed to be the social phase...which is pretty well summed up by the author:
"This next phase in building relationships according to our unwritten code involves the partners being drawn into one another's social circles. They meet each other's family and close friends."
and here i meet madison's family...and they are incredibly nice to me...they're all very proud of me, because i can run and because i'm going to a good college...of course, the only part about this phase is that madison hasn't met my parents, but knowing my mom, there's not really any point in them meeting...heh yeah...although madison has met some of my good friends, and they approve haha...and she approves...
psychological phase is just the point where
"the stresses of life and the varied experiences created by the physical, emotional, and social aspects of the relationship create certain questions and needs in the relationship"
basically a test of where the relationship is so far...and you know what, the more i think about this, the scarier it gets...because there's a natural progression if everything works so well here...and i'm just so young and inexperienced to already be thinking about this...
but as for now, i'd like to get to know her better...and she once told me she wants me to meet her friends...so it's ok that she never called me before she left for new york...i suppose she had her reasons...and whatever they are, i've already forgiven her so it doesn't even matter...i just want to see her...this is exciting, but scary
does anybody actually read these from beginning to end? could you leave a comment (anonymous if you must) if you do