But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
I'm so tired of crying...dear god I'm tired of it. I've had such a shitty day that yesterday couldn't hold a candle to it. I got 3 hours of desperate sleep and had a nightmare about everyone I know dying. Woke up to my dad banging on the door and 10 minutes till my bus got there. Ran out the door without my medicine just to be surrounded by people, only 1 of them I wanted near me...I won't explain who, she knows who she is....
OH and when I got into 8th period I had a splitting stomach ache that hurt if I didn't sit leaning forward.
And then I came home to a angry phone call from my dad saying I was grounded from music and tv because my room was messy, again and that I had my tv on last night. (ONLY because I couldn't sleep). I haven't slept more than 5 hours in 7 days. So I got of the phone and cried in frustration. That's the second time I've cried this week. I'M TIRED OF IT! And now I'm complaining to people here...(I doubt anyone reads this anyways)....
Whatever.....I just wish it would STOP for one second and everything would be okay again. I was sitting in my room and for a minute it didn't feel like my room. I felt like this was all a dream for just a second and the words "I want to go home" went threw my head over and over....
And then there's those people who say, "Move back to Overton. Live with your Grandma or something." And I say SHUT UP! I've met people here that I love and care about (even when they don't realize it) and I could never leave them. I guess I get attached easily....
Oh well....here's some lyrics to make up for my rantings....
-Evanescence-
Sparkling grey,
Through my own veins.
Any more than a whisper,
Any sudden movement of my heart.
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away
Just get through this day
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain
Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.
So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can't hear your screams anymore
You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby
Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again.
OH and when I got into 8th period I had a splitting stomach ache that hurt if I didn't sit leaning forward.
And then I came home to a angry phone call from my dad saying I was grounded from music and tv because my room was messy, again and that I had my tv on last night. (ONLY because I couldn't sleep). I haven't slept more than 5 hours in 7 days. So I got of the phone and cried in frustration. That's the second time I've cried this week. I'M TIRED OF IT! And now I'm complaining to people here...(I doubt anyone reads this anyways)....
Whatever.....I just wish it would STOP for one second and everything would be okay again. I was sitting in my room and for a minute it didn't feel like my room. I felt like this was all a dream for just a second and the words "I want to go home" went threw my head over and over....
And then there's those people who say, "Move back to Overton. Live with your Grandma or something." And I say SHUT UP! I've met people here that I love and care about (even when they don't realize it) and I could never leave them. I guess I get attached easily....
Oh well....here's some lyrics to make up for my rantings....
-Evanescence-
Sparkling grey,
Through my own veins.
Any more than a whisper,
Any sudden movement of my heart.
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away
Just get through this day
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain
Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.
So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can't hear your screams anymore
You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby
Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again.