The Scariest Thing Is Not Knowing At All
You know when you have one of those days where everything you thought you knew and believed about yourself is rearranged? Yeah, I've felt like that all day. I'm feeling uncertain about my own abilities and insecure about my future. I'm scared of not knowing what to do with my life, and feel even more uneasy that I'm striving toward a future that I haven't even decided for myself what it is. I look at my parents, and look at the milestones that they reached when they were my age. My dad knew that he was going to go for his CA and my mom knew that she wanted to become a teacher. Here I am striving for this broad degree, in which I don't really know what I'm really going to be doing with when I graduate. I feel like my efforts this year aren't paying off the same way that they did last year. These are supposed to be the best days of my life, but all I'm feeling is utterly helplesss and fearful, instead of hopeful, of the unknown.