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I didn't even realize it's been a month since my last LJ post. Overall LJ entries are getting fewer (at least on my Friends page), and that may be a good thing. That or it is slowly being replaced by Facebook.
Lots seem to have changed these past month. I practice more, I don't hang out in the lobby as often as I used to, I get more sleep, I think more. My playing has matured, I do my work on time...this semester I haven't skipped that many classes...I still run to the bus stops a lot, but I don't miss them (much) anymore (except on Sunday nights when they come 5 minutes earlier than other nights). Others are changing too...mostly for the better.
I think I'm becoming more comfortable with who I am (in all areas). I can be insecure in many ways. One of my biggest worries is that I'm in the way of others. In particular situations, I wonder if my presence is a hindrance. I worry about the things that I say when I am put in an authoritative position...I don't want be responsible for negative outcomes.
But I'm starting to understand that one cannot go through life without hurting others. Even for the most well-meaning people...a moment's insensitivity and ignorance can be devastating. But that's how we all learn.
I've always been a well-meaning person, but I want to be more than that. I want to be an action-person. Doing what I mean. Changing's not easy, and it'll take a while...but a step at a time.
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Things will get hellish in the next four weeks or so. I will be locked in a practice room for upcoming recitals, or else reading a book for a class, or composing at home. And I think I'll actual love it. Accomplishments are satisfying.
That isn't to say that I'll be so much of a workaholic that I won't be relaxing or partying (in the tamest sense of that word...i.e. playing Pictionary and trying different Jelly Belly flavours. I enjoy partying without alcohol. It's pretty great.).
I went to Montreal two weekends ago for a camp retreat. It was fantastic. I met up with Laura DiLab at quarter to eight at the train station to Guelph, where we were being picked up by a friend. I slept while she played Nintendo DS, and we almost missed our stop. After picking up two others in Toronto, we began our six-hour trip to Montreal. Four of those hours were spent playing the word game where you say a movie that begins with the same letter as the last letter of the previous movie. We also played the "Anal Car Game" throughout. You look at the names of cars on the highway and put the word "anal" in front of it. Highlights included "Anal Vibe", "Anal Exploration", and "Anal Golf". Our car was the "Anal Sunfire Express".
In Montreal, we bonded and drank.
In other news, Faculty of Music clothing is once again for sale at the Porter's Desk. Spread the word! Deadline is Wednesday, February 21, at 3:30pm.
Here's the list of items we are selling: golf shirts, T-shirts, sweatpants, hoodies, full-zip hoodies, microfleece full-zip hoodies, toques, scarves, totebags, blankets, boxers, and pajama pants. Get them for your friends and family!
I've decided not to run for VP next year. I'll be focusing more on studies, playing, composing, applications, accompanying, performing, singing, conducting, reading, listening to music, etc. Maybe I'll run for fourth year rep, but otherwise, I might be done with council. The only other position that interests me is Concert Series (because planning concerts is fun), but it's a lot of work, and I'm not sure if I'll be able to handle it in addition to what I want to do. Besides, I think that I did a mediocre job on council this year...and I'd rather not do a half-assed job again.
Dave Lacalamita is the FOMSC president for next year, and Nick Hyatt is the new head soph. Now put another cute guy in the head peer guide position (I'm thinking Kristen since they'll be living in the same house.), and the faculty is set. Who needs productivity and responsibility. Looking at cute guys makes the world a better place.
(They'll do a good job.)
Lots seem to have changed these past month. I practice more, I don't hang out in the lobby as often as I used to, I get more sleep, I think more. My playing has matured, I do my work on time...this semester I haven't skipped that many classes...I still run to the bus stops a lot, but I don't miss them (much) anymore (except on Sunday nights when they come 5 minutes earlier than other nights). Others are changing too...mostly for the better.
I think I'm becoming more comfortable with who I am (in all areas). I can be insecure in many ways. One of my biggest worries is that I'm in the way of others. In particular situations, I wonder if my presence is a hindrance. I worry about the things that I say when I am put in an authoritative position...I don't want be responsible for negative outcomes.
But I'm starting to understand that one cannot go through life without hurting others. Even for the most well-meaning people...a moment's insensitivity and ignorance can be devastating. But that's how we all learn.
I've always been a well-meaning person, but I want to be more than that. I want to be an action-person. Doing what I mean. Changing's not easy, and it'll take a while...but a step at a time.
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Things will get hellish in the next four weeks or so. I will be locked in a practice room for upcoming recitals, or else reading a book for a class, or composing at home. And I think I'll actual love it. Accomplishments are satisfying.
That isn't to say that I'll be so much of a workaholic that I won't be relaxing or partying (in the tamest sense of that word...i.e. playing Pictionary and trying different Jelly Belly flavours. I enjoy partying without alcohol. It's pretty great.).
I went to Montreal two weekends ago for a camp retreat. It was fantastic. I met up with Laura DiLab at quarter to eight at the train station to Guelph, where we were being picked up by a friend. I slept while she played Nintendo DS, and we almost missed our stop. After picking up two others in Toronto, we began our six-hour trip to Montreal. Four of those hours were spent playing the word game where you say a movie that begins with the same letter as the last letter of the previous movie. We also played the "Anal Car Game" throughout. You look at the names of cars on the highway and put the word "anal" in front of it. Highlights included "Anal Vibe", "Anal Exploration", and "Anal Golf". Our car was the "Anal Sunfire Express".
In Montreal, we bonded and drank.
In other news, Faculty of Music clothing is once again for sale at the Porter's Desk. Spread the word! Deadline is Wednesday, February 21, at 3:30pm.
Here's the list of items we are selling: golf shirts, T-shirts, sweatpants, hoodies, full-zip hoodies, microfleece full-zip hoodies, toques, scarves, totebags, blankets, boxers, and pajama pants. Get them for your friends and family!
I've decided not to run for VP next year. I'll be focusing more on studies, playing, composing, applications, accompanying, performing, singing, conducting, reading, listening to music, etc. Maybe I'll run for fourth year rep, but otherwise, I might be done with council. The only other position that interests me is Concert Series (because planning concerts is fun), but it's a lot of work, and I'm not sure if I'll be able to handle it in addition to what I want to do. Besides, I think that I did a mediocre job on council this year...and I'd rather not do a half-assed job again.
Dave Lacalamita is the FOMSC president for next year, and Nick Hyatt is the new head soph. Now put another cute guy in the head peer guide position (I'm thinking Kristen since they'll be living in the same house.), and the faculty is set. Who needs productivity and responsibility. Looking at cute guys makes the world a better place.
(They'll do a good job.)