confused
i'm not sad, nor am i happy, nor mad. i don't really know my feelings right now, i just know i want to break down and cry. i want a new friend. i want one who is so perfect, that i know right away. i want to be able to tell them anything, and them tell me. i want to break down with all this shit, and i want them to say it's ok. it isn't that my friends aren't good enough, but either they are currently distant, or just won't do right now. in any case, none of my closest friends are what i need. but i do love you, all of you. either i want to meet someone new, or become very close to someone i'm not close to yet. but friends, i do love you, its not about you, it really is about me right now and what i need. i love you.
-lys
-lys