let the rain wash the dirt away
So, here I am, back in the G-ville for another semester after another summer of Target working. It has been a nice summer, and I really feel like I've grown in a lot of ways toward being a more mature-type person, at least mentally-wise. A few more childish tendencies thankfully shed for good. Daytona is a particular type of haven of sorts, in that a long time there provides a kind of decompression from college life so that I can be reminded of what a real world is like outside of the self-contained atmosphere of the university. This semester I start my first year in the upper division of Graphic Design, and having been to all of my classes by now I can tell you I am actually, genuinely excited about my education for probably the first time. Probably because I'm finally studying what I came here to study. (Now I get what everyone had always told me about the first two years and the last two years of college.) It was kind of depressing to come back here at first, I think because the town and the apartment had stayed the same as I had left them in April, and since I am not the same as I was in April, being reminded of my issues from then was annoying. But I am four days into it now, each seeming like several days worth of Daytona time, and I have decided to make some resolutions about my life here:
- I am making it a priority to increase the percentage of time I talk to people on the phone or in person, and decrease the amount of time I spend [not]talking to people online. Not to say that I don't still want to talk online, but it would be about 20-30% awesommer if I got to talk to people on the phone more often.
- Keep a decent distance from the Internet. Only a few days here and I'm already filling my blank time with trying to entertain myself with the internet and wasting time looking for more shit to read even after I've checked my emails and read my web comics. I'm also going to stop staring at my buddy list. I lived a whole summer without AIM and I got by just fine, so there's no need to have a conniption if I get disconnected or if someone signs off without replying to an IM I sent or something. Because fucking, whatever.
- Stop being crazy. Like: saving little scraps of paper because they're a cool color, or 'cause I drew a really happy little smiley face on it, or because I might need a 4"x4" square of paper for some project, or because it reminds me of someone/something. No. The same applies for other dumb items I tend to keep around, like empty glass bottles that have pretty labels or some shit. I create way to much clutter - both physical and emotional - for myself, and I'm really pretty much tired of it.
- Stop getting so angry. Seriously, I get unnecessarily mad at all kinds of little things throughout the day, all the time, and I'm really starting to worry about possible long-term effects of so much mental stress. I need to chill the fuck out, for reals.
- Clean up after myself like an adult, sheesh. I'm going to clean up my dirty dishes immediately after every meal, even if I'm short on time, and clean up messes from my art projects as soon as they are completed.
- Enjoy our awesome sexy apartment to the fullest extent possible because they've turned our apartment complex into condos, so we're probably only going to get one more year here. If I wasn't so lame, I would totally have a bunch of parties. For serious.