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I haven't posted in so long. So much has happened....and so little. I'm in school...finally!!! I have my best friend back. long story. I have a better idea of who I am and I understand that I will never know who I am. I'm everchanging... but who isn't? I'm over Dan, the hairy pizza delivery man, yet I'm mentioning him...hmmmm. I'm over Colby....eh... he's still in my head, but I'm as 'over' him as I'll probably ever get. Thanks to him I have an irrational fear of sex. Thanks. Stephen...well, we're friends and I think I've finally managed to confuse a guy, just as they have confused me. I'm leaving. This fall. I always preach about how one should follow their dreams, find adventures and never settle....It's time for me to stop meandering. I'm ready. I'm not ready. I'm confused. I'm okay with all of that.... I'm not okay with pretending that I haven't 'settled'.... I have and it's amazing how I have alluded myself into believing that I'm happy; I want more. I'm going crazy inside.