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This week has been very exhausting for me. After everything has ended I admit now I was very nervous. In fact, I think I have a panic anxiety. Not to mention it's not just one anxiety. I've never visited a doctor because even though it's troublesome sometimes I get over it everytime. These things are not main part of my life, fortunately. Yet they have quite negative effects sometimes. I have to promise myself not to worry so much next time because one day this thing would kill me. My stomach still hurts like I drank bottle of acid and I have migraine whole day. Fortunately, I'm optimistic by nature and I don't notice these things much :) But it gets worse and worse every time, partially because people around don't understand that and there's a lot of pressure on me. So I'm wondering now if I should search for another job with less responsibility. I mean I'm responsible person but everytime there's something I miss in my job because I'm still very new to it. I'm learning and certainly not a perfect person. And this panic anxiety doesn't do any good when I mess up. Finding new job sounds more like a compromise and I'm not sure I like that. But at the same time it's killing me and I should care about my health. So should I force myself to go on or find something else? That's is the question I have yet to answer...