fuckingnightmare
`` Someone save me from the nothing I've become... ``
I visited my brother today, at the hospital. It was wonderful to have a normal conversation with him. He was actually responding normally... It was so scary to see him in the state he was in before. Everyone's been so nice, about it. Cortney, my manager at work, told me if I needed anything that I should just let them know and quite a few people have been there for me, people I didn't even know cared, and it made me feel a lot better. I didn't feel alone. Thank you for your help.
Today, Josh Capo was back in school. It was really nice to see him. His hair is so much longer than last time. He sat with me at my lunch table for a really long time and we talked. He called me, but I haven't called him back. I don't think I can do anything because Danielle's mom is being such a bitch. She's mad at Danielle because she took me to the hospital instead of cleaning her room... But tonight was the last day I could see him because at 6:30, he gets transferred to Swedish American for the psche evaluation... So, yeah. ugh. I'm so sick of parents and people and school and work. Things just get more and more rediculous than they were before.
Oh, and we found out that my brother took 21 of those Wellbutrin XL pills. Yeah... That's a lot. They were either 300 or 500 mg each, too. I can't remember exactly, but either way, it's an awful lot. He seemed really sad. He said he couldn't even remember school on Friday and this happened on a Saturday night. Wow... That's really scary. My mom talked to his ex girlfriend, too, and she was really upset, too. I guess hse told my mom that he was all she could think about and I know how she felt. He was all I could think about, too. But thinking about this makes me want to cry...
I've felt really sick lately. I'm feel so disgusting, sometimes. Ugh... I don't even know why. Oh, and new classes SUCK ASS. And this Seminar bullshit sounds like BORING to me. Except TRoy Gregory is in that class and he's hot. But that's about it. I don't really know anyone else. lol. Um... David and I got into an argument last night for the first time since we've been back together. It was just him being all prideful and macho. Stupid ass. Ugh. I set him straight though and told him he was being retarded and he actually straightened up. Maybe he really has changed for the better... At least a little!
I hate Mr. Zapke. He stared at me a lot and he read everything I wrote over my shoulder as I was writing it. I was so uncomfortable. I felt so pressured and panicked. People can't do that sort of thing to me. Ugh.
I<3TheEarlyNovember
`` Can't you see the wall you've built for me? Can't you see the wall you've built for me? We're not special, we're not special! We're not special, we're not special! Ever so sweet... ``
I visited my brother today, at the hospital. It was wonderful to have a normal conversation with him. He was actually responding normally... It was so scary to see him in the state he was in before. Everyone's been so nice, about it. Cortney, my manager at work, told me if I needed anything that I should just let them know and quite a few people have been there for me, people I didn't even know cared, and it made me feel a lot better. I didn't feel alone. Thank you for your help.
Today, Josh Capo was back in school. It was really nice to see him. His hair is so much longer than last time. He sat with me at my lunch table for a really long time and we talked. He called me, but I haven't called him back. I don't think I can do anything because Danielle's mom is being such a bitch. She's mad at Danielle because she took me to the hospital instead of cleaning her room... But tonight was the last day I could see him because at 6:30, he gets transferred to Swedish American for the psche evaluation... So, yeah. ugh. I'm so sick of parents and people and school and work. Things just get more and more rediculous than they were before.
Oh, and we found out that my brother took 21 of those Wellbutrin XL pills. Yeah... That's a lot. They were either 300 or 500 mg each, too. I can't remember exactly, but either way, it's an awful lot. He seemed really sad. He said he couldn't even remember school on Friday and this happened on a Saturday night. Wow... That's really scary. My mom talked to his ex girlfriend, too, and she was really upset, too. I guess hse told my mom that he was all she could think about and I know how she felt. He was all I could think about, too. But thinking about this makes me want to cry...
I've felt really sick lately. I'm feel so disgusting, sometimes. Ugh... I don't even know why. Oh, and new classes SUCK ASS. And this Seminar bullshit sounds like BORING to me. Except TRoy Gregory is in that class and he's hot. But that's about it. I don't really know anyone else. lol. Um... David and I got into an argument last night for the first time since we've been back together. It was just him being all prideful and macho. Stupid ass. Ugh. I set him straight though and told him he was being retarded and he actually straightened up. Maybe he really has changed for the better... At least a little!
I hate Mr. Zapke. He stared at me a lot and he read everything I wrote over my shoulder as I was writing it. I was so uncomfortable. I felt so pressured and panicked. People can't do that sort of thing to me. Ugh.
I<3TheEarlyNovember
`` Can't you see the wall you've built for me? Can't you see the wall you've built for me? We're not special, we're not special! We're not special, we're not special! Ever so sweet... ``