Cold Heritage
As always, i'm hangin onto life and enjoying every little bit that i can. Stuff bothers me from time to time, and some stuff more than others. i'm in a tough spot right now, trying to situate myself in a career and trying to make out what and how i should be handling the parenting perdicament and wondering what certain steps to take. i know how to raise my child, i don't really why i'm so sure, or how i know; i just have this paternal instinct on what to do with my kid. no, the real parental questions is everything else around teaching and raising... such as where to live. i don't get it, being single is taking a much harder toll on me. it's very difficult on me. i'm actually very, VERY bitter towards ppl, mainly females over it. like a defense mechanism. and as i look upon all previous posts and such, it's clear that i've had this weight on my shoulders... it's like it's always there. day-in and day-out, i feel a tremendous burden. i wish i could take a pill to make that feeling just go away. it's horrible. maybe life would be better, maybe my attitude would be. i'd love to be happy again. i've always had this attached feeling of emptiness along side of the burden that sits atop of me. but life seems to be uncertain as of now; maybe they'll get better.