Why am i doing this?
So Thursday sucked. I thought after a week or so it would get better. I never would have predicted that me and jason were this close or that id still be this upset. It ridiculous and i dont know if i like being this way. I know its said that you dont know what you have til its gone and i tried to prevent that by being conscious and appreciative of the time we had together...but it still managed to be true.
So i dreamt Wed night that i was running with carrie and we went by jasons house and he was just walking in the door. i ran over and he said he just got there and was gonna give me a call after he rested from his flight. i accepted that and gave him a hug and said "i cant believe houw much i missed this", and he replyed with "you cant ever imagine how much i missed this". This dream was so vivid....
It doesnt help that Dave at work screwed me over with my pay or that my dad is pullin some shit with my insurance behind my back or that my full time pay isnt what i had hoped it would be. Oh we had one of the family friends die after he husband ran over he leg with a camper, she died from the infection, and then he had a heart attack.
And for some reason im missing everyone who isnt around....i wanna run with carrie and i miss alans loud obnoxious banter. I want mike to yell "TROGDOOOOR!!!". But i really just want a Jason hug. My wants are simple but inaccessable at this point. Whats the point of all this school and work if you cant enjoy life in the meantime....theres so much more to life. Today is Romo's last day in the mailroom, that sucks.
So i dreamt Wed night that i was running with carrie and we went by jasons house and he was just walking in the door. i ran over and he said he just got there and was gonna give me a call after he rested from his flight. i accepted that and gave him a hug and said "i cant believe houw much i missed this", and he replyed with "you cant ever imagine how much i missed this". This dream was so vivid....
It doesnt help that Dave at work screwed me over with my pay or that my dad is pullin some shit with my insurance behind my back or that my full time pay isnt what i had hoped it would be. Oh we had one of the family friends die after he husband ran over he leg with a camper, she died from the infection, and then he had a heart attack.
And for some reason im missing everyone who isnt around....i wanna run with carrie and i miss alans loud obnoxious banter. I want mike to yell "TROGDOOOOR!!!". But i really just want a Jason hug. My wants are simple but inaccessable at this point. Whats the point of all this school and work if you cant enjoy life in the meantime....theres so much more to life. Today is Romo's last day in the mailroom, that sucks.