"Freeze or make it forever..."
I'm finding this really difficult. I know with time things will even out but that's not making it easier right now.
I know that in the past I have had way to high expectations of people. It wasn't good for me..for them..or for us. It's like I expected them to be responsible for my happiness and well-being. I've worked hard to get a level head but it's hard..it's really hard. Now I'm at this point where I try not to expect ANYTHING but that's not good either. I don't know what is acceptable to expect. I think this causes a lot of friction between them and me. I was always so upset because I was trying not to expect anything. I tried to convince myself that it was no big deal... But I couldn't..it was just impossible to expect absolutely nothing. It was hurting...I felt my heart getting that crushed feeling. I just don't know what's right and what's wrong.
The truth is we all expect something from those we care about most. If we didn't get anything out of the relationship than we wouldn't be in it. Whether this be with friends, lovers, parents, etc. Everyone in your life brings something different to the table..they all contribute in unique ways. I expect different things from different people. From the one that I love the most I guess I expect gentleness and support with what I'm having to go through...
Sometimes I think I'm not having this at all... But, as I said before, expectations are an one way avenue, full of disappointments and broken hearts instead of moving cars.
I know that in the past I have had way to high expectations of people. It wasn't good for me..for them..or for us. It's like I expected them to be responsible for my happiness and well-being. I've worked hard to get a level head but it's hard..it's really hard. Now I'm at this point where I try not to expect ANYTHING but that's not good either. I don't know what is acceptable to expect. I think this causes a lot of friction between them and me. I was always so upset because I was trying not to expect anything. I tried to convince myself that it was no big deal... But I couldn't..it was just impossible to expect absolutely nothing. It was hurting...I felt my heart getting that crushed feeling. I just don't know what's right and what's wrong.
The truth is we all expect something from those we care about most. If we didn't get anything out of the relationship than we wouldn't be in it. Whether this be with friends, lovers, parents, etc. Everyone in your life brings something different to the table..they all contribute in unique ways. I expect different things from different people. From the one that I love the most I guess I expect gentleness and support with what I'm having to go through...
Sometimes I think I'm not having this at all... But, as I said before, expectations are an one way avenue, full of disappointments and broken hearts instead of moving cars.