no one said it was easy, but no one ever said it'd be this hard
[DOn't be alarmed, this is nothing. Just venting. I prob just need some sleep]
sometimes words cannot be used for how I feel. actually, it's most of the time. considering I am horrible at explaining myself or telling people how I feel, which is why people have gotten mad at me in the past..can I dare catagorize this as a disability? It makes me unable to conversationize. Language is life; you cannot live without it, but try one day. Then and only then you'll see how I feel.
It isn't like I don't have everything I need, because I do. It isn't like I don't have people to lean on. Maybe having everything physically at hand has made me realize all that I don't have a hold on. It's just a series of short moments or spirts in time that push me further and further away.
>You know that feeling right before the breakdown<
I've had that for I'd say 2 weeks now (not quite sure why), but you see I've lost time reference since it goes away, decieving me, hiding till when I'm most vulnerable to reappear....But then there is that part of me that surpresses everything, because I feel stupid for caring so much. I feel stupid for falling for all of it, for letting myself be controlled
well I'm done. Forward on with another week
sometimes words cannot be used for how I feel. actually, it's most of the time. considering I am horrible at explaining myself or telling people how I feel, which is why people have gotten mad at me in the past..can I dare catagorize this as a disability? It makes me unable to conversationize. Language is life; you cannot live without it, but try one day. Then and only then you'll see how I feel.
It isn't like I don't have everything I need, because I do. It isn't like I don't have people to lean on. Maybe having everything physically at hand has made me realize all that I don't have a hold on. It's just a series of short moments or spirts in time that push me further and further away.
>You know that feeling right before the breakdown<
I've had that for I'd say 2 weeks now (not quite sure why), but you see I've lost time reference since it goes away, decieving me, hiding till when I'm most vulnerable to reappear....But then there is that part of me that surpresses everything, because I feel stupid for caring so much. I feel stupid for falling for all of it, for letting myself be controlled
well I'm done. Forward on with another week