My Butterfly - Kaname oneshot
Title: My Butterfly
Author: Bloodredhead (aka. me)
Fandom: Vampire Knight
Rating: T (Though tragic)
Character: Kaname
Summary: After kaname leaves the masquerade ball in Chapter 88 what may his thoughts be on what he just witnessed between Yuuki and Zero?
Link - http://www.fanfiction.net/s/8726189/1/
My beautiful butterfly.
It feels a lifetime ago since I first held you in my arms, your tiny hand holding firmly to my thumb. Your cheerful smile lighting up my world when there felt like only greyness filled it. Your warm presence as you greeted me with affection whenever I returned home or to visit you. Your lips that spoke my name with such reverence.
But now…...
Those eyes which once looked at me with adoration now look at me with confusion and little recognition. The one I wished to understand could not….and the heart I wanted to beat only for me, beat for another.
So I did the only thing I could for your happiness.
I let you free; from your cage you had been in, to fly to where you wished…..to whom you wished.
I would now do the only thing left I could do. Guarantee your safety for the years to come and leave my last gift to you and human kind. A new furnace, which would last through the ages.
I just hope one day, sometime, you may understand my reasons.
They say, to have loved and lost, is better than to never have loved at all. That's how the saying goes, yet….I find myself disagreeing, as this torch that scorches through my blood and skin, so much pain coursing through me, I feel I will break. I would rather have not loved if it meant me losing not once but twice the one I loved. This pain which sets me alight in its endless burning is far too real to ignore.
The moment I knew you, my butterfly, had taken nectar from your white rose, my heart cracked…..and then when your lips touched his, it shattered into a million pieces. Each piece, piercing my soul.
Was I not meant to be loved?
This question has haunted me for many nights. I have been denied little in life, but the one thing I truly desired in this mundane existence I could never acquire…..
…...Love.