we get letters
The announcement of the Great!New!Opportunity which is my outsourced replacement went out in a letter to everyone at work today. Everyone important that is. I didn't get one. Someone handed a copy to my ex-assistant and he read it to me even though I asked him not to. Guess the ducks finally lined up.
They made it sound like this was a new thing, an addition, an extra they are 'providing'. Like they hadn't had access to these services for the past damn 12 years. Like we never even existed.
The short memory of the institution is a given. Once someone leaves, once someone announces they are leaving, the past recedes and memories fade. When it's an unpleasant leaving they fade faster. Sometimes they fade while the person is still around. I know this and still it hurts.
The 90 days I was given to shut everything down stretches out in front of me like an endless wave of painful chores and increasing invisibility. I have made a plan, and I am sticking to that plan. Even though I feel sick, my jaw and neck ache, I'm exhausted and depressed I will do my duty and shut this place down properly. I will stay until the bitter end because frankly, I need the money.
People are starting to wander by and ask if they can take things. I haven't spit on anyone yet. I smile, and smile.
The man who everyone is to contact, the 'expert' in my field, our go-to guy, knows nothing. He is almost completely ignorant of what I do. He is to be the conduit for the largely overseas operation (a lousy office in California, with labor done in China) which will do the work. He cannot give advice or trouble-shoot problems. Maybe the company will do that. Maybe not. I would imagine he won't even stay the point man except in name. He'll appoint someone in his department to deal with it, sooner or later.
I don't even really hate him. I don't think he particularly wanted this job on top of all his other responsibilities. I do think he said 'of course' when they asked if he could do it. I do think he thinks what I do is technical crap any bench jockey could do. I do know he tried to run a facility like mine before and failed miserably. But the company will take the blame if things don't work, which they probably will frankly, cause they are switching to a newer method I've been trying to get people to switch to for months now. But he'll take the credit. Backs will be slapped. Money will be saved.
And I will fade.
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